Despair is a disgusting feeling. It twists your guts, and weighs down your heart. Despair looks disgusting, and so do i. I am almost the human embodiment of despair. I forget what happiness truly feels like.
I have to take drugs to make me happy.
I have to drink to forget.
I have to smoke to relax.
I have to cut to feel.
none of this is okay, and neither am i.
