Maybe I wasn't ready for life...

Pretty Girl

I went to my bedroom and flopped on the bed. Time with Rachel was just what I needed. I grabbed my phone and played pretty girls by Maggie Lindemann. I went to the bathroom to wash my face. I looked in the mirror and thought about how I thought I looked. I never thought I was pretty because I thought girls were prettier than me. I was fair skinned and had a dark long mop for hair and I had chocolate brown eyes. I could literally list my flaws, even ones that no one really noticed. I always thought I was ugly but I've always wanted to be one of those girls with blonde hair and blue eyes... a person with no flaws. Small tears formed in my eyes and I watched them roll down my cheeks and I wiped them away. I then got ready and wore track pants and a sweater then went to Rachel's house.

"Hello, bestie!" Rachel greeted me. "Hey..." I said tiredly. "Tough day?" She said to me as I walked in and threw myself on the sofa. "Not as bad as I thought but-" I said, "But?" She asked. "Well, you know how I really wanted to not tutor him and-" "Hoped that he'd cancel?" she replied. "Yeah, and you know what would happen if my-" "Parents would react if they see you with a boy..." She said. "So, since my mom was going to be home next week Tuesday..." I continued,  "Yeah?" "I finally had an excuse that would have been good enough to-" "Not tutor Shawn...Wait what do you mean would have?!" she yelled even though she wasn't angry, I could tell by her smile. "Well he sort of asked me to lie and I just blurted out yes without thinking..." I said. "WHAT!?, YOU PASSED AN OPPORTUNITY TO NOT TEACH SHAWN!" She yelled, " Are you angry?" I said softly "Why would I be angry?! I think you've got a crush! a new and better one at least" "I have not!" I protested "Ok then... at least it's not that stupid Isaac who has dated every cheerleader in school..." she said as she rolled her eyes. "I don't have a crush on Shawn!" "Fine.... Shadowhunters?" "Yes!" I squealed. We grabbed a bag of chips each and started watching. Even though the TV was on I couldn't focus... my mind wandered off, thinking about Shawn...

It was Friday morning, I rolled out of bed. My stomach was gurgling from the junk food from last night and my eyes blinded from watching Shadowhunters. "This only happens when I go to Rachel's" I grumbled. I got dressed and went to school...

I walked through the hall and joined Justin who was walking to the same class as me, Science. "Hey husband," I said happily. That was my nickname for him, I know it was sort of weird but we didn't care. That's what I like about him, he's calm, care-free and doesn't care about anyone else. You can be weird around him and he'll join in. "What's up?" he replied. I clutched my stomach in pain, I knew that third piece of cake was a bad idea. "You went to Rachel's?" He asked and I nodded in reply.  "Well, you know that's dangerous..." He laughed and I laughed with him. "Anyway... are you going to Shawn's party?" he asked. "What? Shawn's having a party?" "Yup, you going?" "Umm, I'm not sure but..." "I'll be there..." he said, smirking "Sure then. I'll see if Rachel is going to" "ok then" He replied. "Ugh! we have Science! horray!" I said "hmm? were you trying to be sarcastic?" he said playfully. I rolled my eyes at him. I was never good with sarcasm, every time I tried to be sarcastic, everyone actually believed what I was saying. We went to class laughing, as always...