A Love Story Of A Kingsglaive [A Final Fantasy XV story]

Chapter 8: Everything Is Over

  Me and the four guys stayed in Cape Caem for almost whole summer break. I couldn't deny that it wasn't a funny trip for others, but obviously not for me. Everyone was smiling for sure but Noct was avoiding​ me most of the time. Whenever he thought he needed to tell something important to me, he just said me and other than that.... Nothing. I even tried to make a conversation with me, but he just dismissed it. I didn't even know what was actually wrong with him, I didn't try to push him later on.

  We came back from Cape Caem before a week from starting the school again, and within that week we didn't make any contact with eachother. After a week of staying in the house, we got back to the school. In the school I found out that Noct didn't came. First I thought he maybe didn't able to attend classes because of his sleeping habit, but when a week went by and he didn't appear at all, I started to worry about him. I even asked Prompto but he didn't know anything about it. So at the end, I decided to go to his house, to be accurate, Ignis' apartment, where he lived.

  One fine day, after school I walked towards Ignis' house to talk to Noct. When I finally reached in front of his house, I knocked on the door. Ignis gave answer and opened the door. I didn't understand how long I kept holding my breath until I released it, it came out like a long deep sigh. He opened the door and saw me was standing there, clenching my fist harder. Ignis asked, "Cat? What are you doing here?"

  "Is Noct inside the house?" I asked him, taking in a long breath.

  "No, he went to Tenebrae. I am sorry."

  'You're not sorry.' I thought to self. I already saw that his shoe was there beside Ignis' and I could understand that Noctis forced Ignis to tell me lie whenever I would come. And then I understood that he was still mad with me and he didn't wanted to talk at all about it, and the reason why he was angry because of the that night conversation in Cape Caem. Even though I understood that he lied to me still I didn't force the bispectacle man to say the truth. Instead I acted like I believed his lie and said, "Oh okay, when he came back please tell me."

  "Sure I will, don't worry Cat. Have a nice day!" He smiled to me. At that time I really wished to punched on that face of his, but I restraint​ myself from doing so. Instead, I gave a small smile and walked away from his apartment.

  I could able to feel all my energy left from my body. I couldn't able to feel like walking at all. It was afternoon, people were chirping, smiling and talking like most of the other days, but to me, it felt like everyone was smiling at me, watching me like a total trash. It was true, I was a total trash after knowing there was no need for me in this world anymore. The person whom I made my friend, was my first friend in my whole life and looked at me now, just because I created some love trash towards him, I was on the verge of loosing the friendship with him. Stupid me! Was it really that much important to feel love towards him? What was I thinking back then when I developed this so called 'love crush' towards him and allowed it to grow bigger? Damn it! Why it always happened with me? Whenever I wanted to create a bond with someone, I always messed up and ended up watching them to leave me behind like a mess. Was I always the unlucky one? Then I understood why I always hated my life so damn much. I understood that I was always destined to stay alone. If I ever bumped into anyone to make him/her my friend, I would ended up destroying everything. So it would be easy if I just stayed alone. It would.....

  Thinking all this, I didn't able to feel at all when the rain started to fall. Well it was really hot because of the sun that rain decided to cool the surface of dead Earth. To me, it was really nothing if I get all soaked for the heavy rain. I could see that people were running​ elsewhere to take a shelter from the rain so that they didn't get soaked, and there I was, standing on the middle of the road, in the middle of the rain, not giving a damn about it. I slowly looked up at the sky, rain was falling on me, taking away every bit of agony from inside me. It was really refreshing. Looking at the rain the first two words that came out from my mouth were, 'How fortunate....' It was really fortunate because the time when I lost my family and walking here and there, not knowing where to go, it was raining heavily at that time and now too, I was standing in rain after almost losing my friend, not knowing what to do. It was really fortunate for me. You guys may think that I was overreacting for it, I just lose a friend nothing else, I have still others, but I know what was the importance of friendship in human life, especially in my life, because I know the pain of being alone.....