And You Are?

20th, October: 2016

2:29am:
Hey

2:45am:
hey ash, is everything okay?

2:46am:
we haven't talked in awhile, thought you gave up on me.

2:46am:
there are a lot of people I give up on Ash, but not you.
plus I already know you have attachment issues.
how come you're up?
oh wait. it's the middle of the afternoon.
this'll take some getting used to sorry.

2:46am:
what's it like in England right now?

2:47am:
in terms of weather, mood, news, politics?
as all of it is not looking good or will do for a long time.

2:47am:
Okay, in terms of weather.
You say how it's always miserable, I just want to know what it's like where you are specifically.

2:47am:
Well, it's cloudy.
But not the grey clouds that only turn darker and become more depressing as they approach the remainder of the blue sky just a dull grey.
I doubt it'll rain today but I can see the sunlight peeping through, trying to make an appearance.
Just it never gets the opportunity to before the night comes.

2:48am:
So what do you do when the weathers like this?

2:48am:
There's this small cafe in town, sometimes I just make some excuse to go there and enjoy the atmosphere.
When it's Autumn and all the leaves pile up in the park across the road you can feel the light breeze and hear the kids laughing as they kick the leaves about.
Sometimes I'd join in, laugh for a little while.

2:49am:
It sounds nice.
Serene.

2:50am:
Oh it is, some day you'll see it.
Maybe we can have a tea then stroll through the park and catch up like old friends.

2:50am:
I'd like that, yeah.

2:50am:
How's the weather for you today?
Anything like I'm imagining in my mind- you know the stereotypical idea of Australia with the blazing sun and surfers strolling around?

2:50am:
In the stereotype am I a hot surfer?

2:50am:
Nah.
You're no stereotype.
You're different.

2:50am:
Good to know.
And for the record- I don't surf.

2:50am:
See? Thought as such.
Now come on, what's it like today?

2:56am:
It's sunny, pretty warm I guess.

2:56am:
that all?

2:56am:
I'm not sure what I'm supposed to say... its just the weather.

2:56am:
I just
nevermind.

2:56am:
what?

2:59am:
sometimes I think of you as the sunshine that emits on us now and then.
as cringey as that sounds, you just brighten my damp mood.

3:00am:
huh.
funny you should say that.
all I want is a thunder storm.
something different.

3:00am:
you want to just break free?
no high school musical reference intended

3:00am:
I think so, just get away for a little while you know?

3:01am:
something I know all too well.

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5:29am:
Amy, babes come on.
why don't you answer me.
you know you love me
why are you hiding?