And You Are?

3rd December: 2016

3:51am:
why the change in heart?

3:55am:
oh trust me
my heart hasn't changed.
I merely want closure.

3:55am:
thats fair
but, why?

3:55am:
why do I want closure or why do I want to see you?
as both still baffle me and I'm the one who planned this.

3:55am:
why you want closure, I thought that was kind of settled when I went away.

3:55am:
and I never visited because I was hospitalised?

3:55am:
I didn't mean it like that

3:55am:
oh sure thing Liam
did you forget that we were together for the best of two years?

3:59am:
this isn't like you.
you were never bitter.

4:00am:
did you ever think why?
do you want to know why Liam,
because I was afraid to be out of line with you.

4:01am:
with me?
me?

4:01am:
you.
and do you know what being out of line got me?

4:01am:
Amy don't.

4:01am:
no Liam shut it.
for once, Listen.

4:01am:
fine.

4:01am:
see?
see how it feels to be shunned and put in your place?
that is how I felt after the honeymoon period of our relationship.

4:01am:
you've found someone, haven't you?
that's why you want closure.
as an excuse to be with someone else without the guilt.

4:01am:
guilt?
guilt?
you think I feel guilty?
Who was the one who spent months behind bars, Liam?
and the other in hospital?

4:01am:
Oh I bet he doesn't know about me.
The ex she still loves.

4:01am:
you're deluded.
you think I could love you?
never.

4:01am:
you did.

4:01am:
feelings change.
people grow.
but sometimes there are people who can't.

4:01am:
is this you getting closure then?

4:01am:
no.

4:02am:
wow.
you actually want to see me don't you?
see what you're missing?

4:02am:
no.
you're disgusting.
I want you to look at me.
look at what you've done to me.

4:02am:
what I've done?
Amy,
I don't understand.

4:02am:
you will.

4:02am:
what did I do?
what happened to you in the hospital?
Amy?

4:03am:
sleep well Liam.
or at least try to.
one too many bodies lie in your closet.
see you tomorrow.