Seeing Love (bxb)

19. Playing God

4/18/17
A\N: Today was my B-day.
I'm officially 20 which is weird.
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"You heard me Nick I'm pregnant so you need to stop playing around with that guy and take responsibility for our kid." She says arrogantly as a wave of nausea filled me.

"Ta... Take responsibility? By what?"

"Marriage. How am I suppose to take care of our child alone?"

"Marri...How do you even know it's mine?" I manage to spit out despite my shock.

"I haven't been with anyone since I was with you." My stomach churned into knots at the painful reminder of that night and a sense of anger washed over me.

"You expect me to believe that?" I may be stupid but I'm not that stupid.

"It's the truth."

"Truth?..." I spit with contempt. Her words burned me deep and my mouth felt as if someone had lit a match in a dry forest. "You wouldn't know truth if it bit you in the face. I'm sure you've been opening your legs to every guy you meet. I bet your not even pregnant. Do you even have proof? You think after everything you've put me through you can just make up some imagery baby and..."

"Nick I'm not lying!" She yells over me.

"YES YOU ARE!..." I blow up, blazing defiantly and losing the last of my calm as panic drowns out any pride I have left. My voice echoed in open air of the large parking lot. "Fuck you! Stop messing with me! Why are you trying to screw up my life?! Huh? Is it fun playing god?!" Her forest green eyes were surrounded by red as tears processed to come down, an indiscernible mix of mascara and eyeliner streaked in unflattering black globs down her face reeking havoc on her plush pink cheeks.

She looked pathetic.

"Why are you being so mean to me?"

I scoff at her.

"FINE I'll get rid of it! Does that make you happy?!...."

The lot was dead silent, even birds had abandoned their happy tune and the air fell heavy at her stare.

"...I'll need to borrow some money my dad keeps a close eye on my spending and him can't find out about this." She says.

The whole 'getting rid of' part made me cringe but the her words keeps replaying in my head. Marriage. I'm not ready to get married and I'm not ready to have kids especially with her.  If I give her the money then no one has to know.

No one has to know.

"How much?" I could smell the trouble brewing.  I've know her long enough to sense this was not the end of this subject but desperation is a strong motivator. If this rumor where to come out whether true or not I could lose everything. I could lose Aden.

I don't want them to know.

"I don't know... Fifty bucks?" She shrugs smearing the makeup onto her sleeves as she wipes her tears.

Honestly I still don't believe she's pregnant, she's a good actress and I heard story's of girls lying about stuff like this but if fifty bucks is all it takes to get her out of my hair then so be it. I fish my back pocket for my wallet pulling it out, I whip out three twenties and go to hand it to her. But before she can take it I retract the money and say; "Not a word of this leaves your mouth." Then give her the cash. I regretted those words the moment they left my mouth.