Seeing Love (bxb)

25. Petty

10/12/18
A/N: Not proofread :p
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Flashback continues Aden's POV

The fantasy of Nick's home life came crashing down in my very presents. His dad had just walked out on him and his mom was interesting to say the least. I felt horrible But all I could focus on was the metaphorical gap between us grow from across the room as Nick told me to stay but proceeded to comfort Blair.

Even though I couldn't see him, I was sure that he was holding her.

The jealousy I felt was petty, I knew it but I couldn't help feeling alone as he cooed her stop crying.

I was so confused.

And as a streak of water left my eye I knew why I was so upset.

I was crying too but he didn't see it. He didn't comfort me. He didn't know.

It was petty to worry about myself as a pregnant girl was in pain.

I knew he was hiding something but this.... this was to much, to intense, to sudden.

I wanted to scream but no, I just stood silently in the doorway with tears in my eyes.

After a while I turned around to leave but I couldn't, not without answers.

So I sat on the stairs of his porch listening to Blair cry.

A few minutes passed and police and ambulances rolled up.

The EMT's ran into the house and came back out with Blair on one stretcher then another came out with his mom.

I sat out of the way listening to the chaos.

Blair cussed and threatened the nurses, telling them how important she and THEIR baby was.

Calling them idiots and so forth.

Maybe she was scared, maybe it was a defense mechanism or maybe that was just her personality. She had always been nasty towards me so I couldn't tell.

Nick was talking to the nurses on the front lawn.

"Are you the father of the unborn child?"

He hesitated then answered "Yes."

It hurt to hear straight from his lips but at the same time I felt guilty for make this situation about me.

"Is IT okay?" Nick asked the nurse.

"Well I can't say so but it seems that of the most injuries she suffered was from her arms and upper torso from protecting her child so if she didn't suffer any internal bleeding and her stress levels weren't to high then it's possible that the baby will be okay."

The police then stepped in.

I listened as the officer asked Nick for her guardians name.

"She's not in a good relationship with her dad so she's currently staying with me so I guess I'm her guardian." He replied.

"Ok well you'll need to either take your own transportation to the hospital or ride in the in the ambulance with your mom or your girlfriend." The officer stated.

Girlfriend? I guess it would make sense to assume that they were together.

"I'll drive to the hospital myself." Nick answered.

"Ok kid have a safe trip." The officer said flipping his notebook shut.

Then Nick made his way over to me.

"Hey." He said trying to be casual as he sat next to me on the stairs.

The pizza I had brought was sitting on a step next to me so he asked. "Is that pizza for me?" Trying to break the tension but unfortunately this tension couldn't be broken even with a chainsaw.

"So you're having a baby." I stated dully.

The air was stiff as he answered with an almost shameful voice. "Yeah if all goes well at the hospital but Blair and I aren't together we...." I had heard that excuse before but this time it was hard to believe so I cut him off.

"Congratulations, I guess you better go then."

"No I won't go until you understand."

"Understand what? Please I want to understand." I begged with a cracked voice while holding back more tears.

"I...... I can't........I can't tell you I'm sorry. It's complicated and I'm just....." He stopped mid sentence. "not really."

"Your life is complicated. Everything about you is complicated and I was stupid for thinking we were something special when I was just another compilation." I said under my breath.

"You ARE special, just be patient with me. I need more time to figure things out." He put his hand on mine but I pulled away.

"We are out of time Nick."

"But..." 

"I'm moving to Texas."

"Texas?"

"They've got a surgery that can fix my eyes so I have to move down there for six months."

He paused, I could tell that his wheels were turning. "That's great!!! So you'll be back after that and I can visit you on some weekends and holidays and we ca...."

"Nick I think we should break up."

I even shocked myself with those words.

"What?" He asked.

"Your life is complicated and honestly don't think I can handle it right now." And that was the truth, I was overwhelmed.

"No please I can fix this." He begged.

"How? Because its all pretty broken and you can't seem to be honest with me." I cried.

"But.... I...  I love you and..."

"Honestly I can't tell if thats the truth anymore.......I think you should go to the hospital and check on your family... they need you."

At that my uber driver pulled up so I got up and left him at the steps with a cold pizza and a bunch dying roses.

End of flashback

That was the last time I spoke to him. Before I left town he came to my house a few time but I didn't answer the door. He called me so I blocked him. I didn't want to hear from him because I knew if I did I'd probably take him back, because as much as I hated to attempt it I still loved him.

I avoided Heddy's calls as well but mostly out of guilt for braking her brothers heart.

And after moving over time I started to move on with my life and decided to stay in Texas. But once I moved out of my parents place for some reason the memories started flooding back. No matter how far I ran he was always with me.

So when I saw him in my restaurant it was like high school all over again and I got petty.

"Orlando, you still going on that hiking trip?" I asked.

"Yeah, you change your mind about going?" He asked eagerly.

"I think my schedule just might be open."

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A/N: yeet