Words Meant A Lot (Jamie Campbell Bower)

Chapter 14- Jamie's Undying Love

Tessa's POV

"No no no no," I said for the hundredth time as Brent stood by the stove, finishing dinner. 

"Yes yes yes," Jamie taunted me and I gave him a death glare. "You had sex and didn't seem to know what a condom was. Take responsibility," he stated.

The nerve this man has!

"Really?" I raised my eyebrow. 

"I'm taking responsibility now-" he began.

"Oh save the bullshit," I stopped him and he actually shut up. 

Brent was done with the curry a few moments later while Jamie and I sat at the table in complete silence. He did not want to poke the bear because this bear was not in the mood. My head was leaned against the dining room chair that I sat on and my eyes were fixed on the ceiling. My mind was turning into a maze and it was a complicated one. 

So many problems and issues raced across my mind within such short space of time. 

Can I really raise another child?

Am I ready to have another child?

Sure my bills and expenses were more than covered by my salary but what about space? 

My house may not have enough space for another baby. 

How can I manage three children? 

Can I do that? 

Oh God, I thought to myself, what am I gonna do?

"Babe, breathe," Brent rushed by my side as he saw a drastic incline in my breathing rate. I began to gasp and Jame looked over alarmed. I clutched my stomach as my breathing became uncontrollable. My eyes were wide open and I knew what to do but somehow, my knowledge could not have been applied right now. 

"Breathe with me, Tessa?" Brent's soothing voice commanded me as he began to take deep long short spaced breaths and Jamie got up from the table and disappeared. This continued for less than a minute before my breathing began syncing itself with Brent's and he got behind me and gently placed his thumbs on my shoulders and rubbed. 

I felt a bit lightheaded as he aided in the relaxation of my muscles and I closed my eyes but I immediately began to visualize my problems. 

I saw myself dressed in an old thorn dress, holding my newborn baby while Jay and Jessie ran all over the place screaming and knocking over the vases in the house. I just stood there and watched them because I was too tired to do anything. I saw my eyes sunken and my bones protruded unhealthily from my very pale skin. It looked like I eaten food in 6000 days and I didn't seem to know what a comb was or a shower or make up. 

"Tessa, hey!" Brent snapped his fingers and captured my attention. "You haven't taken a pregnancy test, okay? Don't panic," his voice was soothing but his statement didn't matter. 

I knew I was pregnant. I showed the signs early this morning but I assume it was the leftover breakfast that I had and my period didn't visit me on its due date. Since I had Jessie and Jay, my period never came on a specific date but around a certain time. I just assumed it was coming late. I should have known better. 

I should have fricking known better.

Brent, being the amazing man he was, went to get me a pregnancy test. Jamie unfortunately chose to stay over.

"Look, there's something I need to tell you," Jamie said suddenly. His tone was more caring and I stopped thinking about all my issues and focused on him. His eyes had that soft and caring look in it. He made slow long steps towards me before he stood in front of me.

"Tessa, I hate it. I hate seeing you with him," he began, startling me.

 I began laughing... and laughing very loudly. My eyes began to water and I held my stomach while my laughter grew uncontrollable. 

"Jamie, no... you'll make me die of laughter," I said as I took a deep breadth and began regulating my breathing pattern. 

He stood there gazing at me in awe as though I disrespected him. He passed his hands through his hair and sighed. He looked angry. 

He couldn't have been serious. Of course not. 

"Tessa, I am not joking. Can't you see that I want you back? Why else would I shown up here?" he asked me with a very serious tone. "Of course, to see Jay and Jessie but why else, babe?" 

"Don't call me babe," I growled at him. I immediately changed my mood. I was angry and confused. He literally pushed my buttons and now he wants to get back together? 

Is he mad?

To make things more complicated, I was pregnant for another man. 

"First of all, are you stupid? Second-" I began, hoping to list out all of the reasons why we should never ever ever ever ever... do I need to say ever again? Get back together. Co-parenting would be such a huge challenge and I'm happy with the amazing man who I'm now pregnant for.

"Tessa, shut up," he said loudly. 

The audacity...

Control the anger... I told myself. 

I gave him a death glare as he looked down on me, not even apologetically but as though I was the one person that he loved and would risk anything for. 

That look made me uncomfortable... I knew that look. He used to look at me like that before I got pregnant.

Then I felt Jamie's lips on mine and I struggled to push him off of me but I was too weak. His lips glided slowly and passionately against my still lips and all the memories from when we were together came rushing back to me.

Just like that, my lips began to move along with his and I could feel him smile. 

I really wished that I had protested more or never kissed him back, because what happened next, would change everything and complicate things even more. 

ONLY ABOUT 6 MORE CHAPSSSSSSS

Author's Note: I know, guys, nope I wasn't dead but I have been busy working on my other novels and I was suffering with major writer's blocki for this chapter but finally, I have overcome it though I took rather long and I'm sorry. Thanks for reading and OH!

Guys, since I have prolonged this update for reeaalllyy long and I think it's in your best interest and mine for me to write about 6 or less chapters and wrap up Jamie and Tessa forever. 

I have been writing this book since I was 14 or 15 and I took really long to update a lot and I lost all my readers especially those loyal ones but I want to thank everyone for the votes and reading. 

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