Words Meant A Lot (Jamie Campbell Bower)

Chapter 6 : Sorry

Tessa's POV

I stuck my hands in the side pockets of my coat. The air condition in this restaurant was very cold and I had to stand aside since I was supposed to meet Jamie here and he wasn't here yet. I turned up a bit early because I didn't want to stay out too long. Tomorrow is the wedding and I didn't need any more bags under my eyes. The coat was wrapped around my body and I wore a t-shirt under that with skinny jeans and a converse. Yes, I still wear my converse even though I'm a mom now.

"Hey," I felt a hand on my shoulder and saw Jamie. I casually moved my body a bit to the side and his hand dropped willingly.

"Let's go sit, shall we?" he asked a bit awkward and I walked inside. The lady showed us to a table and we sat down. I didn't order anything but Jamie did.

"So let's discuss stuff..." His voice trailed off.

"Okay," I said and waited to hear what he had to say.

"I just want to say that I'm sorry," he apologized and then silenced surrounded us.

"What? Do you think you're five and an apology would make everything better?" I spat and I made him cringe at the fierceness of my voice.

"Why do you have to be so difficult?" he asked, frustration in his voice.

"I'm the one that's being difficult because it's your fault," I pointed at him.

"You could have chosen to have an abortion or something," he replied and rolled his eyes.

"I'm not a killer like you," I said angrily. He was seriously pushing his luck and I was 0.0004 % of loosing my temper.

"We've both made mistakes in our past relationship and you can't deny that," he pointed out.

"I'm not denying anything. I'm just trying to give you a message that says to leave me alone," I simply said and the waiter placed his plate of food in front of him then left. "Where is your girlfriend, anyway?"

"That's none of your business," he snapped and ate his food.

"It's amazing because I wonder if she knows about Jay and Jessie?" I was hitting him with all of his mistakes and I wasn't feeling a bit sorry. "Don't you ever feel guilty?"

"You're being a bitch," he told me.

Sure it hurt a bit but I shrugged it off. "I'm a bitch and you're an a**hole, right?"

"Why do you feel the need to hit me with all my sins?" I don't know why but I suddenly started to sing I Write Sins Not Tragedies for him even though it had no relation to what we were discussing. He narrowed his eyes and I could tell I was pulling his strings.

"I want to meet them," he cleared his throat.

"Not to walk out of their lives," I shook my head.

"They're mine too, you know?"

"What makes you think that I trust you?" I cocked my head to the side but he had a point.

"It wasn't what you think," he lowered his voice. I knew instantly that he meant the whole situation with Zoe Graham.

I sighed and thought carefully about what I was about to say. He was right. I was being a bitch and it's his kids too. "Fine, you want to meet them?"

"I want to show you that I am different to how you think I am. I'm sorry."

"Hurry and eat your food," I ushered him. I got an idea to show him how much an apology does. He ate as quickly as he could. I called the waiter and paid for Jamie's food. Yeah, I paid even though he declined and I paid for the plate. I told the waiter in her ear what I wanted to do. She told me the best place to go was behind the restaurant and she led us there. Leaving us alone to get privacy.