Words Meant A Lot (Jamie Campbell Bower)

Chapter 4 : How Much Things Have Changed

Tessa's POV

A tattoo.

According to most dictionaries, it means marking a part of the body with an indelible design by inserting pigment into punctures in the skin. Which is exactly why taking tattoos is a big decision and what you tattoo on your body, too. It is permanent and you need to be careful with the tattoo that you take.

I should have been thinking when I took one. Now I have permanent ink to remind me of my past relationship that I really want to move on from. There is now a permanent writing on my hand that I wish I never got.

Love means a lot.

I remembered pulling Jamie into the tattoo shop and Jamie suggesting the tattoo. It was one of his mother's favourite sayings. I stared up at the ceiling and let out a loud sigh. Jay and Jessie were asleep next to each other on the next bed. Don't worry, they couldn't roll off since I blocked them with pillows and their angle on the bed. I looked at the clock on the wall a few feet away from me and realized that it was early to be up. It was just 6 a.m and today would be just a boring day. We planned to go out to dinner and lunch also, probably do something a bit fun. I closed my eyes hoping that I fell back to sleep but I didn't. I got my lazy butt off the bed and freshened up. After doing so, I changed into a summer dress that stopped above my knees and wore sandals. Of course, Jay woke up and he woke Jessie, too. I showered them and brushed their teeth then dressed them. I heard a knock on the door and opened it.

"Come on in," I told Alyssa and she came in. Jay and Jessie ran to her immediately. In times like this, I felt like my kids adored people more than they adore me.

"Let's go for a walk," Alyssa suggested after hugging Jay and Jessie.

"Yes!" they both agreed and I chuckled at them. It's amazing sometimes, to realize how much things have changed in my life. Having Jay and Jessie changed it a lot and showed me life from a different perspective. I grabbed my phone and then we left following Alyssa who said that in the backyard of the hotel was a lovely secluded area.

Jamie's POV

"James, could you at least get up?" Matilda yelled for the fifth time. Really? Can't she go drag Layla to go with her? It's half six or somewhere around there and she wants to go for a walk now? Probably going crazy, I thought was the answer. "Jamie, come on," she begged, shaking me violently until I rolled off the bed with a loud thud. I lazily got showered and dress. I settled on a pants that stopped about my knees and a shirt in which I rolled up the sleeves. I entered the kitchen and sat on the table, drinking the coffee that Matilda made for me. Last night wasn't one of my best nights as Jake nearly knock me unconscious in the corridor. Matilda and they came out after I tried my best to persuade him not to knock me out since I would have had to defend myself which would have turned into a fight and that would not have been good. He threatened that if I found myself trying to win back Tessa, he would kill me. I let him do all this and say all this because I knew he was right. I ran away because of something caused by me.

"Hey, what are you thinking about?" Matilda questioned and sat on my lap.

I finished off my coffee and placed the cup on the table. "How lucky I am to have you," I lied sweetly and kissed her cheek. It became as red as a tomato and I laughed at her.

"Come on," she whined. "Let's go." I nodded and we left the our room.

"Where are we going?" I asked as I followed her to the back of the hotel.

"The park," she answered. She took a hold of my hand and I let her lead me to wherever she was going. Turns out there was a park behind the hotel. It was wide, if you asked me. There were people taking early morning exercises, a lady was doing yoga, children laughing, playing and enjoying themselves. Matilda and I were a bit hungry we realized and had to walk back to the hotel. We purchased some kind of pastry- I didn't know what the hell it was but it tasted delicious!

"We need to come here more often," Matilda said as she took a bite into the pastry. We sat on a bench and looked at our surroundings. It feels good to do something and not have the paparazzi all over you. It feels like I'm back to being a nobody but I loved my career. Acting was something that helped me to have an open mind to the way people think and it was my passion. I was great at it at such a young age and the idea of me becoming an actor long ago, got me excited. It's just weird to realize how far I came in life and how hard I had to work.

"It's amazing how everthing happens," Matilda said, suddenly.

"What do you mean?" Even though I knew what she meant, I wanted to know why she said that so sudden.

"I mean... just days ago I remembered being an emotional nerdy teenager and wishing to be a model but here I am now, persuing that dream," she explained.

"You wouldn't believe it but I was thinking about that same thing," I told her and we both laughed.

"I think this trip would have been better if we were alone," she admitted and I tried so hard not to crack a smile. Finally, she realized this! "You thought so too, didn't you?" I kept my straight face and she punched me then gave me a kiss. A mexican lady scowled as she walked past us and I couldn't help but chuckle. Just then I took Mat's and my garbage to throw away. Upon walking there, a toddler walked straight into my legs. Seriously, I'm starting to feel like a giant. I immediately helped him up.

"You okay, little guy?" I asked and crouched down to his level. I then realize this was James.

"James," he said.

"Hello," I replied and dust off the sand by his knees. I wasn't all that good with children so I really didn't know what to reply. At the corner of my eyes, I could see a lady rushing over to us.

"Oh my God, I'm so sorry," she apologized and picked up James. I stood up to tell her that it was okay but that's when the garbage completely fell out of my hands which became numb. That's when we both stood still and stared at each other in awe. I couldn't believe it. I could tell that this wasn't a dream. I wish it was, though.

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                                                                                                                                                    ~Nayia