When I was 10 I had braces
I've always had bad teeth so it was no surprise.
Everyone was kind about it
No one laughed.
No one poked fun.
No one even mentioned it.
But the odd thing was
I wanted people to make fun of me.
I wanted people to call me
Brace face.
I wanted someone to take notice of
Me.
Even if it was in a negative way.
I have never wanted to "blend in"
But it seems that's all I can do
I'm not extraordinary at anything
I'm just another cog in the wheel.
No one would ever look at me and think
"Wow look at her"
"She's so special"
"She's so beautiful".
I'm just normal.
And I think that's the worst thing you can be.
Normal.
No one cares about you
You won't be remembered
I will fade away
I wanted people to make fun of me so I could
Cry
And make people feel sorry for me
Make people notice me.
It's awful I know
But that's all I want.
To be noticed.
