I find myself draw to those
Outside my reach.
I say
They would love me
If they were closer.
Unobtainable
Yet I feel so close.
I know so much about you
I know you
You'll never know me.
Knowing you makes me feel less
Alone.
Makes me feel like I have someone to
Talk to
To make me laugh
Distract me when I'm sad.
Separated only by a screen
Yet so far away.
My hope fluctuates like a wave
One minute
Positive that you'll love me
The next
Sure that your just a dream.
Something to hope for
Something to stay alive for.
The possibility of loving you
Is what gets me out of bed each day
And
What keeps me moving.
It's easier to love someone
Far away.
They can't reject you.
They don't even know you.
When they're close
Things go wrong.
They see you
Your flaws
Your disorders
They turn away
They'll run away.
So I'll keep you at a distance.
Like a bright star at the end of a
Never ending tunnel
That keeps me alive.
