Bad Intentions~Dansby Swanson

Chapter 11

JUNE 9TH, 2017 

Today was the day of the draft and of course I was going to be intently watching to see who Dansby would be drafted by. We just came home from a road trip and now we're on a day off. Freddie was back at his apartment and I was at mine and of course I had the draft on. 

I knew Dansby would be the first pick and we didn't have the first pick, so that put a little less stress on myself. Although he wouldn't be up in the big leagues at first, it still would've killed me to know he could get called up any minute and I'd have to see him every day. 

My phone rang from the kitchen and I went in and got it and Freddie was calling me. "Hello Freeman." I said and he laughed. "Come let me and some of the guys in." He said and I hung up and went to the door and let him, Matt Kemp, Julio, Nick and AJ in. 

I had made some food for them. "You're beautiful." Freddie said kissing me. "Will you two ever keep yours hands off of each other?" Nick asked as he saw him kissing me. "Nope never, she's too beautiful for that." Freddie said taking some food and going into the living room. 

"So who do you think will be the first pick?" Julio asked us. "Hopefully Dansby." I said and they all looked at me funny. "He's my ex who cheated on me while I was here and he was on our senior class trip to Cabo, I'm dreading the day he ever comes to this organization." 

They all just nodded their heads and Freddie rubbed my back. I sent him a smile and we turned our attention to the draft which was now happening on the TV. "And with the first pick in the 2017 MLB Draft the Arizona Diamondbacks have selected the shortstop from Vanderbilt, Dansby Swanson." 

I let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding. I smiled knowing that I'm sure his family was super happy for him, he's going to do great in their system and hope that he'll turn that club around, we need some turning around too but not enough to have him here. 

"You must be happy." Matt said and I nodded my head. "Very, he's a great player, he's going to do great there. As much as I hate him, I'm still happy for him. You know?" They nodded. "It's hard to get over someone like that." Nick said. 

"Yeah it's been hard. We had been dating since November and he even gave me a promise ring the night of their home opener of the season. I could actually see myself with Dansby for a future, but now he's just a thought in my mind." I said looking at Freddie. 

"Will you two just fuck already? All you two are doing is having eye sex with each other!" Nick said and we laughed, if only he knew. "Or you two have been hiding things from us." Julio said. "We've been hiding only because of everything that went down with Dansby." Freddie said and I nodded. 

"Well you two make a cute couple, just no kids." Matt said and I don't think I've ever said "No kids" that fast in my life. I still see a future with Dansby, so Freddie is sort of just a fling and he knows that and he's okay with it. 

Unless he's lying to me, which I pray he's not. I grabbed my phone and I texted Dansby, because I was still proud of him for getting picked first, it's a big deal. 

Me: Hey, congrats on getting picked first, the D-Backs are lucky to have you. 

Dansby: Thanks, it means a lot coming from you. I'm still sorry for everything, I don't think I'll ever stop apologizing to you. 

Me: It's fine and you're welcome. I still don't forgive you 100%, I still love you Dansby. 

Dansby: I still love you too, please take me back. 

Me: Dansby I can't, maybe if you ever got traded to the Braves we could try again, but I don't trust you. 

Dansby: I understand, thanks for the text.

I sighed and leaned into Freddie as the guys were now leaving my apartment. "Everything okay?" He asked. That's the good thing about Freddie, okay maybe a bad thing too, he always knows when something is up with me. He should be the psychologist, not me. 

"I don't know how you know, but it's weird. Well I texted Dansby to tell him congrats and he asked me to take him back and I said maybe one day, I have to give him some hope. I still don't trust him, I don't know if I could ever trust him again." I said and Freddie rubbed my back. 

"I know, it's going to be hard, but I'll be here for you. No matter if we're together or not, I still care for you." He said and I looked up at him and smiled. "Thank you Freddie it means a lot." I said kissing him. 

"You know, you're supposed to be helping us guys, not the other way around." He said and I laughed. "Yeah I know, it's kind of weird, but that's the kind of guys you are. You're funny and weird." I said as I stood up from the couch. 

"Where are you going?" Freddie asked watching me walk up the stairs. "Let's go lay in bed all day and cuddle and watch Netflix." I yelled from upstairs and then I heard the TV turn off and footsteps come upstairs. 

I turned on the TV in my room and Freddie made himself comfortable on my bed while I set everything up. I looked behind me and he was literally asleep. I laughed and took a picture for snapchat and put the caption "I literally said lets go watch netflix and this is what I find, night night Freeman" 

I climbed into bed with him and he felt my presence and he cuddled right up to me. My phone buzzed and I saw Becca texted me. 

Becca: Is that who you slept with? He's cute but I thought it was only a one time thing?

Me: Yeah that's him, his name is Freddie and I thought it was going to be too, but I can't stand to think about what Dansby did to me anymore, so I ended things with him for now and Freddie is just helping me through things. 

Becca: Girl I hope you know what you're getting yourself into, I'm always here if you need me. I may be on the other side of the country, but I'm still here. 

Me: Thanks Becca, miss you! I'll take you up on the offer and I hope I know what I'm getting myself into too.

I ran my fingers  through Freddie's hair and I did wonder what I was getting myself into. I still loved Dansby, but I was starting to catch feelings for Freddie too. Real feelings.