He's the Man

My low parts.

I remember feeling different, and like it was a bad thing.

Every time someone mentioned anything about two guys or two girls, it was immediately "bad".

When I began to realize who I was, I was still at a pretty young age so coming out wasn't really an option.

I used to play out scenarios in my head of what would happen if I did anything of the sort.

I never did though, because the thought made me sick.

Some nights I would sit and my room and cry.

These can be considered my low parts.

School at this point was a total nightmare because everywhere I turn I was being targeted. Just things like hearing people whisper "Ha! My sister has the same skinny jeans! Gay ass f@g!", but also direct things like boys seeing me in the bathroom, and crowding me asking if I wanted to hit on them, and even telling teachers did absolutely nothing. They got away with it, and I was labeled as the gay guy who was a loser.

These were my real low points.

Whoever said that finding yourself is easy, obviously didn't know what they were looking for.

At home, I would avoid everyone and began to stop eating.

I began no longer social at school and avoided everyone, including my best friend.

I completely closed off the idea of being gay, and pushed it far back into my mind.

I felt like I had no one left.

I was alone.

I was scared.

I gave up.

Now I know what you are thinking, that is the last thing you want to do.

But being young, I had no choice whatsoever.

Being gay was seen as bad.

I became very depressed, that I no longer cared to go out of my room.

Luckily, my friends did notice this, and really helped me out.

I would talk about my feelings, and around my friends I started to feel accepted.

But now I know that just because your sad and depressed, doesn't mean you aren't capable of more. You are the one who runs you, and you decide if you choose to care or not.

This is considered the high part, when I finally came to accept myself.