Diaries of an Angry Fangirl

☞ my weird obsessions

(watch the gif above at its fullest... sam winchester has never been more relatable) \

Don't fret. This isn't as erotic as it sounds... Wow, that was an awkward way to open a chapter...

ANYWAYS.

So, recently I've gotten back into an old habit of mine and it made me realize how pathetic and ridiculous I actually am so, why not share my shame with everyone, am I right? That's what this book is for, anyways. I have a couple "obsessions" that are either strange or downright stupid to some people. Which is why no one knows about them.

Except for you guys. Feel honored. Feel humbled. Don't get too big-headed. You're not that special. (Yes, actually, you are. I can name four people from the internet off the top of my head who know me better than ANYONE in my personal life.)

Hmm. Sad.

Again... ANYWAYS.

1. Gaming

Now wait, before you say "Oh, I game too!" It's not like that. I'm not a gamer, but I have a fixation watching people who are. Or, kind of are... Like YouTube, I could watch JackSepticEye for days in a row (which I do), or DazGames aka Daz Black (who mainly does reaction stuff but I watched four of his horror gaming videos just today), and every wannabe gamer watches PewDiePie who's equally horrible at games but entertaining nonetheless. I watch Joe Sugg's gaming channel too but I'm sort of in love with him so.

BUT THOSE AREN'T THE GAMES I'M TALKING ABOUT.

Those are "normal" gaming channels to watch. If you tell someone you watch Jack or Pewds, everyone won't care because it's a thing people do. However, some of you may have heard about the game Agar.io. Which, I'm sure all of you have because it fucking blew up out of nowhere and kids would go to the library at lunch just to play it. 

Whale. I kind of got obsessed with it. 

Unhealthily. 

I started getting into gaming channels that had videos dedicated to strictly Agar.io, and y'all, it's sad to say but I used to watch these on the daily. Hours at a time. Like as soon as I would get home from school, I'd go to my subscriptions and watch all of them and then probably find more and then probably rewatch them all. 

I CAN'T EXPLAIN THIS ONE, OKAY.

For the most part I've outgrown it. The game is really boring now and laggy as hell anyways. But every now and then if my subscriptions are dry or I've watched all my main channels, I'll spend a little free time catching up on good ol' Agar.io vids. 

I know it's sad. 

Judge me all you want.

IT ONLY GETS SADDER.

2. Apps-I-Don't-Really-Know-What-To-Call-Them

I feel like this one is more normal-ish, but it makes me feel pretty pathetic all the same. If I'm not writing sappy books, I'm reading them. But... you see...

Japan is interesting.

Some of you may know about the "anime" apps, which aren't really anime in my opinion but sort of are artistic wise. They're basically story narratives where you get to choose certain dialogue to get different story outcomes. And, obviously being Japan, you get love triangles and love quadruplets and all kinds of nonsense.

BUT I LOVE THEM DEARLY, I'M NOT EVEN SORRY.

I stopped playing them for a while because some give you five story tickets and when I ran out, I still wanted more but I didn't want to wait until the next day to refresh so... Needless to say, ya girl was spending self-pity money left and right. It was literally sad. And it was my mom's money so I'd be like "hey, can I spend 99 cents for a game?" and she'd be like "what game?" and I'd be like "candy crush. I ran out of energy."

I'VE NEVER EVEN PLAYED CANDY CRUSH. DO THEY EVEN HAVE ENERGY? IS THAT EVEN A THING THAT EXISTS?

See my dilemma, though? I can't tell my mom I'm playing sappy little interactive love stories when I'm 17 fucking years old. It's pitiful...

But I got my own credit card now so...

GUESS WHO'S BACK

BACK AGAIN

SAPPY LITTLE INTERACTIVE JAPANESE LOVE STORIES ARE BACK

TELL A FRIEND (or don't because it's hella long and doesn't make sense)

So yeah. In two days I've finished two games... I need some good ones but ya know, those are hard to come by. In total, I've probably finished... yeah I don't fucking know. I do different character routes in the same game so does that count as multiple games or one idek.

But a word of advice: don't knock these games until you try them, okay? I swear, they are addicting. Some of them actually have really good plot lines too with really adorable characters.

THEY'RE REALLY GOOD, OKAY, DON'T JUDGE.

Or you can. Just don't be too harsh. As you can tell from this chapter, I'm a sad lonely bean already. So wait... 

Actually that means you can judge me as hard as you fucking want to.

I already don't have enough self-esteem to give a shit.

Is that a good or bad thing? ... Don't answer that.

I don't even know why I wrote this chapter but maybe it was amusing. Who knows. I gotta go find some more asshole characters to swoon over in my Japanese games... Okay bye.

P.S. 10/10 will definitely give you sappy story recommendations if you actually want some. And I mean actually want to try it out. It's like an interactive Wattpad book, okay, don't mock me. AND they're free to download. You don't actually have to spend money on any of them. I'm probably saying all of this and no one gives a shit. Oh whale. There's the info if you did want it.