If Jealousy Could Kill

Chapter 27: A Fragile Heart

Rina was growing more and more scared as the seconds ticked by. Haruna wasn’t responding. Rina knew that Haruna must love her back; she had seen it after all. So why wasn’t Haruna responding to her kisses? Why was Haruna standing there so still and stiff? Haruna had her back pressed against the wall, her hands limp by her sides and her breathing was stalled in her throat. She wasn’t responding to Rina’s kisses nor was she really responding to anything else at the moment.

The young brunette pinning her was getting desperate for a response though. She was getting desperate for Haruna to show her that she loved Rina back. The young girl brought a hand up to Haruna’s face, her fingertips running over the delicate skin on her cheeks. Rina caught Haruna off guard when she gingerly pushed her tongue into Haruna’s mouth, trying to deepen the kiss and get a reaction out of the older girl beneath her.

Rina did get a reaction, but not the one she had desired. When she deepened the kiss, she could feel Haruna’s body finally start to move. Haruna’s body squirmed a bit, her hands coming up in between the bodies of the two roommates. Before Rina could do anything else, Haruna had given her a rough push, forcing Rina to break the kiss.

The now hurt brunette kept her body close to Haruna’s, her scared brown irises staring into Haruna’s own. Rina moved her head forward in another attempt to kiss Haruna but the older girl turned her head away, easily dodging Rina’s kiss. The action had made tears come to Rina’s eyes. Haruna didn’t look back up at Rina; she kept her head turned away with her eyes half-lidded while she kept them focused on the floor.

“Why?” It was the only word Rina could muster up to ask. There was nothing else she could think of to say or do. This was not supposed to be happening. This was the opposite of what Rina had desired. Haruna was supposed to respond to her kiss. She was supposed to accept Rina’s love and return it, the two girls were supposed to be happy together.

But that didn’t seem to be what was happening here.

“Please get off of me,” Haruna told her in a voice just above a whisper. Rina didn’t move though. Her body stayed stiff as she kept herself close to Haruna. Why was Haruna saying these things? Why did she want her to get away from her? Rina didn’t understand it. She had been so sure of what Haruna’s feelings would be, and this is not what Rina had had in mind.

Haruna let out a soft sigh, her eyes glancing up at Rina. The younger girl needed to get off of her so they could talk. If Rina refused to do that willingly then Haruna would have no choice but to force her to do it. After a few more seconds without a response from Rina, Haruna raised her arms again and gave Rina another rough shove. Getting Rina away from her was for the better.

This time, Rina did get away from Haruna. The shove had forced her to stumble back, her arms leaving the older girl’s body. Rina managed to catch herself just before she would have fallen. She took a few steps back, her hands coming up to be held against her chest while her hurt eyes stared at Haruna. The older girl looked over at Rina, noticing how she resembled a hurt puppy. Haruna did feel guilty for shoving Rina like that but the younger girl had to get off of her, it was clear to Haruna that they needed to have a talk about what had been going on with Rina lately. Haruna couldn’t put it off any longer.

The problem was though that Haruna had no idea what to say. She knew what she needed to ask but her mind wouldn’t form actual words for her mouth to stay. She stood silently, still pressed against the wall as the two girls stared right at each other. She could see the way Rina’s feet shuffled beneath her, a sure sign that Rina was nervous.

“Didn’t you like my kiss?” Rina asked her softly. The younger brunette was only met with silence. Haruna let her head cast downward, her eyes becoming filled with tears of her own. She knew this was going to hurt both of them. How could this happen? When did this happen? Haruna had never even noticed Rina’s feelings growing for her.