If Jealousy Could Kill

Chapter 34: Lies?

“Why are you doing this to me, Mami?” Rina choked out. Her words were said shakily and her entire body wasn’t doing much better. The shaking tore through her, her head moving itself back and forth in a disbelieving manner. What was Mami saying? She loved her? Mami was lying. She had to be lying… But why? Mami was supposed to be helping her; Rina didn’t understand this.

“Rina, please listen to me. I know it seems strange and I know this isn’t really an appropriate time to be doing this but I think you need to hear this. I do love you, Rina. I’ve loved you for a long time but I’ve been scared. I know I can’t hold it back any longer. You need to hear this from someone; you deserve to hear it from someone.” Mami’s heart was beating a mile a minute but she had to keep going. She was scared and nervous about how Rina would receive this but she couldn’t stop now. This was her last option, her last resort, in order to get through to Rina.

“You’re lying…” Rina’s hands clawed at the sweatpants she was wearing, her breathing beginning to become labored. Mami was only saying this to make her feel better; the blonde didn’t mean any of it. Every word was a lie, Rina knew that.

“I swear on my life that I am not lying. I would never lie to you about this.” Mami didn’t know how to get Rina to believe her. She thought the sincerity and seriousness of her voice and body would tell Rina that she was being honest. Mami was almost never serious; everyone who knew her knew that she was being honest if she got serious like this. If this didn’t make it clear to Rina though, Mami had no idea how to do that.

“Stop it…”

“Rina, please listen--”

“I said stop it!” Rina yelled. Her hands flew up to cover her ears, a tear slipping down her cheek. Was it not bad enough that she was locked in this place, but now Mami had to go and lie to her like this? Rina didn’t see what Mami hoped to accomplish by doing this, she should have known Rina wouldn’t believe such nonsense. “You’re lying.”

“I’m not lying. Why won’t you believe me? I want to help you. You need to let her go so please try. Forget Haruna and start over with me. I can help you if you’d just let me.” Mami was getting more scared as the time went on. Rina wasn’t receiving this as well as Mami had hoped she would, but the blonde couldn’t say she was surprised that the unstable girl would receive this in such a negative manner.

“Sasazaki, I think it’s time to wrap this up. You cannot be upsetting Suzuki like this.” Mami looked over at the security guard and felt her heart sinking. What did she do? She wanted to get Rina to believe her before visiting hours were over today and if he made her leave; she wouldn’t be able to do that.

“Just a little more time.” The security guard sighed softly but shook his head.

“For your own protection, you need to leave. You’ve made her too upset.”

“I won’t hurt her,” Rina mumbled softly. She had her head cast downward again, her watery eyes staring down at the messy clothing she wore. They were actually implying that she would hurt Mami, how could they say such a thing? Rina would never… Or maybe she would. She had hurt two of her friends already.

“Suzuki, you need to understand that you aren’t in control of yourself. You’re dangerous.”

“Don’t talk to her like that,” Mami said sternly. The guard looked over at her, raising an eyebrow at the curious way Mami was staring at him angrily. This woman clearly understood nothing about what was going on. “Rina isn’t dangerous, she just needs help.”

“And she’ll get that help but for tonight, this meeting is over. This is not optional, Sasazaki. You will be leaving; you may come back tomorrow if Rina is calm enough to handle it.” Mami sighed in defeat but nodded her head nonetheless. She wasn’t going to be getting anywhere with these people.