If Jealousy Could Kill

Chapter 40: Fix This

“Are you sure about this, Haruna?”

The brunette in question nodded her head from where she sat on the bench just outside of the hospital keeping Rina. Tomomi sighed softly, mentally biting her tongue. She wanted so desperately to beg Haruna not to go and just forget Rina but she knew doing that would only hurt Haruna even more than she already was. She couldn’t stop her worrying though. Rina had tried to kill Haruna and they said Rina was still ill. What if Rina tried to hurt Haruna again? Tomomi couldn’t bear the thought of it.

“I’m positive,” Haruna told her. “Are you sure that you don’t want to come with?” Tomomi could see the emotion pass through her eyes, silently asking Tomomi to come see Rina with them but the brunette shook her head. She wasn’t ready to see Rina. Even with Haruna well, she couldn’t forgive Rina. Not yet.

“I think it would be best if I keep my distance from Rina still…” Tomomi admitted. Haruna nodded, her eyes glancing over at Mami who stood awkwardly behind the couple, doing her best to pretend like she wasn’t listening. The awkward acting of Mami made Haruna smile; she never was good at concealing when she was listening to something going on right in front of her.

“What are you going to do in the meantime?” Haruna asked.

“I’ll wait out here for you two. Don’t worry about me, Haru. I think you should worry more about what’s going to happen with you and Rina; I’m guessing it’ll be a pretty heavy meeting.”

“Yeah…” Tomomi gave a weak smile and knelt down in front of Haruna. She placed a hand under Haruna’s chin, forcing her head up so the two girls were looking each other in the eyes. She leaned forward, giving Haruna a soft kiss.

“Don’t worry, darling. Everything is going to go fine,” Tomomi encouraged her. She wished she could believe her own words even though she didn’t. She didn’t believe everything was going to go fine if Rina was still emotionally unstable. Tomomi kept replaying the worst case scenarios in her head.

“Haruna, we should go in now. Visiting hours are starting and if you want the full time to speak with Rina…” Mami purposefully let her sentence trail off and Haruna nodded her head in understanding.

Tomomi pushed herself up, extending a hand out to Haruna. The injured girl grabbed it, allowing Tomomi to pull her up. She winced from the pain, although she did have to admit it was a bit less than yesterday. Mami was quick to come to Haruna’s side, allowing Tomomi to pass the injured girl into her grasp. She held onto Haruna’s arm, making sure the older girl was steadied.

“We could come back another day if you’re in pain…” Tomomi tired again weakly. Haruna shook her head, her breathing slightly labored from not just the pain but the worry she felt as well. Haruna could admit she was worried. Did Rina hate her? She didn’t want Rina to hate her; she didn’t want their long friendship to end over a girl. She had to see and speak to Rina; she had to repair this and fix it.

“No… I have to do this, Tomomi,” Haruna rejected her idea. Tomomi nodded her head, clenching her hands into fists as she forced out a smile. Why did Haruna have to be so stubborn? Why couldn’t she see that she didn’t need to be around Rina? Tomomi wasn’t trying to be revengeful against Rina; she simply wanted to protect her girlfriend.

“I’ll keep everything under control, Timo,” Mami attempted to reassure the brunette. It hurt Mami to hear Tomomi speaking so frightfully about Rina but she couldn’t say that she blamed Tomomi. It had been over two weeks since Tomomi had last seen Rina and the last memories she had of her were far from pleasant. She knew Tomomi didn’t want to see Rina and Rina didn’t want to see Tomomi.

Still, she wished there was some way to bring the two of them together…

“I’ll see you soon,” Tomomi said. She did her best to give them a smile despite how her heart broke on the inside. Mami tightened her grip on Haruna’s arm, pulling her into the hospital. Left alone outside, Tomomi sighed softly and collapsed onto the bench. She could only hope everything was going to go well.