If Jealousy Could Kill

Chapter 35: Inside

“Here you go, sweetie.”

Rina didn’t bother to answer the nurse who had spoken to her in such a sickly sweet tone. Her body simply slinked into the dark and dreary room, her legs carrying over to the bed. She could hear the nurse sigh and mutter something under her breath. The young brunette sat herself down on the edge of the bed, refusing to look at the nurse. She hated the nurse. She hated all the staff here; they all treated her like she was crazy. But she wasn’t crazy; she knew she wasn’t. She didn’t belong here.

“You’re doing well so far, Suzuki dear. If you keep up the good behavior, we might let you out so you can socialize with the other patients,” the nurse told her. Rina nodded her head in response to the nurse’s words.

“Thank you,” she murmured softly. The nurse didn’t say another word to Rina. The young brunette only heard the door to her room shut and lock… Her room? It felt more like a jail cell to Rina. This place didn’t feel lock a hospital at all; what kind of hospital locked its patients away in their rooms?

Rina had only been in here two days but she had already learned to loathe it. She had no freedom; she had no choices. It was almost as if she wasn’t even a human anymore. She was just a prisoner – a crazy prisoner.

The broken girl let out a heavy sigh, collapsing back onto her bed. She moved herself onto her side facing the wall, curling herself up into a ball. She pulled her knees up to her chest, her chest rising and falling slowly while she held her hands against her chest.

Her mind thought back to her meeting with Mami only minutes before she had been escorted back to her room. The security guard had forced Mami to leave; he had insinuated that Rina was dangerous. Rina knew she wasn’t though. She couldn’t hurt Mami; she would never hurt any of her friends. She didn’t believe that she had hurt Tomomi or Haruna either but… The evidence did stack against her. Everyone, even Mami, was saying she did it so maybe…. Maybe she was capable of hurting Mami. Maybe she was dangerous.

She didn’t know anymore.

The words Mami had spoken just moments before that swirled around in her head as well. Rina, I love you. Why had Mami said that? Mami didn’t love her; Rina knew that she couldn’t. If Rina couldn’t get her one love to feel for her back, it didn’t seem possible that she could unknowingly get someone else to fall for her.

The blonde was only trying to be a good friend to Rina and make her feel better, but lying wouldn’t make Rina feel better. She couldn’t believe that Mami would ever love her. After all, Mami had never shown any romantic attraction to her before, so why start now? Feelings like that didn’t just develop all of a sudden.

Rina whimpered softly, her hands moving up to grip her aching head. Why was this all happening to her? Why couldn’t Rina be normal? Why couldn’t things work out for her? Everything was so confusing. She didn’t know how to make sense of anything that was happening to her.

She just wanted it all to stop.

***

Rina sat curled up in the corner of the pleather, teal colored couch. A small yawn left her lips as her tired eyes stared out at the rest of the Day Room. The brunette had barely any sleep last night, her mind wouldn’t calm for even a second.

Multiple patients sat scattered around the small space. Some watched TV, others played pointless board games, and more still bothered the nurses at their station. Rina sat alone though. She may have earned the privilege to come out of her room but that didn’t mean she wanted to associate with anyone else in here.

The brunette had finally been trusted enough to be let out to socialize but it didn’t matter to Rina either way. She didn’t want to be in here and she didn’t want to socialize with these people, all Rina wanted was to go home. She wanted to see Haruna again and she wanted to be far away from this place.