I am what I feel

I can't look back, not when I'd want to come to you

So yes, another short chapter, if this keeps going this way it will be longer than I thought I had planned...Anyway this is an important chapter after all so I hope you guys like it. Fair warning, this is just lutteo.

Luna walks looking down at her feet, a sigh escaping her lips every few steps, every time Matteo's face appears on her mind. She hates this, this shouldn't be happening to her, she shouldn't let herself be weak like this. She shouldn't let herself be weak for him. It even got in the way of her doing her job, for fuck's sake, she let it get too far and now she doesn't know how to stop it, this boy already creeped his way into her heart and now she can't get him out of it and that's the most dangerous thing she can think of.

Luna feels a pressure in her chest and tingling in her eyes she has never felt in a human body before, but she recognizes that she wants to cry, that's how much he has affected her.

Luna sighs, the effort of keeping her powers at check becomes greater and greater every second that passes, she can feel herself about to lose control and she can believe that it would happen for a simple teenage boy.

Luna stops walking and looks around the park, in her slightly hidden place she can see so many humans, with so many feelings, they store love, happiness, sadness and hurt inside them and every time they think it will last forever, every time they think there's no greater feeling but they are so ephemeral, their feelings are fleeting, their love can be conditional, they can confuse lust and selfishness for deeper things, they don't know themselves and they don't know each other. How did she ever found herself falling for one?

"Thinking about something?" She hears someone ask right behind her asking, making her jump a little. It's him, of course it's him, she can't escape him.

"Not really." She whispers trying to keep her voice steady, not turning to look at him. "Just observing."

"Observing what?" He says standing next to her and she looks up at him,biting her lower lip.

"Just people." She shrugs and he looks down at her surprised.

"I haven't pegged you for the type to observe people." He admits, his eyes on her.

"Just sometimes." She tells him. "I like people."

"Yeah, that part is not surprising at all." Matteo smiles softly. "Is there anyone you don't like?"

"Yeah, there is." Luna answers not being able to fight the small smile that tugs at the corners of her lips.

"Someone in specific, munchkin." Matteo clarifies. "Not just the abstract of mean, bad, rude people."

Luna bites her lower lip, she can't think of any god or human that would fit into that category. She shakes her head and his smile grows wider as it turns almost teasing but he doesn't say anything, there's no attempt to turn this into a flirting opportunity, he just keeps staring at her, his eyes roaming her face slowly, until they settle on her lips and Luna's breath stops for a second as her heart starts to beat faster. He wants to kiss her and she is not only guessing, she can actually feel it, because as she is standing there, her eyes going from his deep warm brown eyes to his lips she has lost control of her powers and she can feel everything he does. She wants to run, she was to leave him there and never look back but the mix between her feelings and his locks her in her place, she doesn't know if the need to close the space between them and feel the other's lips is but it moves both of them. It makes him lean down closer to her, resting his hands on her waist as she tilts her head up, taking her hands to his shoulders and before she knows it her eyes are closed and her lips are moving along his. So many feelings inside her explode and she can't even recognize which ones are hers or his anymore, it's just a tangled mess of want, of relief, of failure, of victory, of worry, of freedom and something the he could only describe with the word 'finally' going through her whole body and overwhelming her to end. All of her senses are full of Matteo, there's no escaping him, there's no turning back and even if her brain is screaming at her to stop the kiss, to stop this madness, she can't do it, she doesn't want to do it.