I am what I feel

Truth can fix you up, truth can tear you down

So some Lutteo, some simbar, some important things another cliffhanger because I'm mean and Ii'm not that sure of what I did here. Anyway I hope you guys enjoy it.

She arrives to the park before Matteo does, her legs had taken her there as fast as they could, her whole body buzzing with excitement, the weight of her choice pulling her forwards instead of wearing her down.

She doesn't stop to think about the whole thing until she is standing alone in the park, right under the tree. She needs to talk to him, she needs to tell him everything before she does something because this has to be as much his decision as hers and he has to be aware of everything it will entail. They will make the decision together, she is going to make this right in all of their wrongness, she is going to be fair with him and if after all he still wants to be with her she will take the leap, she will follow her heart.

She sees a figure approaching her at a fast pace and as soon as she sees that it's actually Matteo she throws herself at him before she can even think about it, their lips crash and she can see that he is surprised but he starts kissing instantly, his hands going to her lower back, pulling her closer.

She closes her eyes, letting herself be drowned on the feeling if him, of his lips on hers before she remembers what she actually came here to do and pulls away.

"Shit." She says and Matteo looks at her surprised and hurt appears on his eyes.

"Please tell me you are not gonna run away again." He asks closing his eyes and Luna hurries to hold his hands.

"No, no, not again, I promise." She says. "But I was supposed to talk to you first."

"About what?" Matteo opens his eyes, relief obvious on his face.

Luna looks around and spots a bench nearby and drags him there, making him sit down and then sitting next to him. Luna takes a deep breath, not letting go of his hands, she looks at their intertwined fingers, it's almost like their hands fit perfectly.

"What I'm about to tell you is really important."Luna tells him and Matteo nods. "Well, I'm actually going to show you."

"What do you mean?" Matteo asks confused and Luna just shakes her head.

She is scared, no matter how sure she is, she is scared, scared like she has never been before what if he doesn't want this after everything, what if he doesn't want to dive into this, what if this is too much for him. He is just an human after all, he has no reason to risk anything for her, no reason to mess with godly business.

Matteo seems to feel her hesitation so he squeezes her hands lightly and smiles at her encouragingly. Luna nods, trying to find the resolve that filled her body minutes ago. She could do nothing, she could just be with him, give him no explanations but she needs to be honest with him, she needs to give him a fair chance to know what he is doing.

She closes her eyes and focus on their linked hands and in every feeling that's running through her right now. She starts easy, a small flow of feelings sent his way, so small, so infinitesimal that he probably didn't register them at first but she continues, letting her feelings go to him, letting them fill him and making sure he realizes that they are not his. She feels him gasp. Luna focus on her memories of him, trying to replicate what happened to her that day they kissed, she focuses on the first time that he saw him skate, how she had felt like he stood up from other humans, she focuses on the first time she saw him smile wide and sincere and how something way too alike those butterflies human say to feel filled her stomach, she focuses on the first time he held her hand, on the first time she found herself fixed on those deep brown eyes that can make her feel like there's no one else in the world. She hopes that he gets, how much he means to her, how important and especial he is, how much she cares about him. If he decides that he doesn't want to do this in the end at least he won't have any doubts of what she feels for him.