"Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?" A page called 'The Artidote' once asked me.
I don't know. Tama ba 'yung ginagawa ko? I shut my life out completely to people without even knowing their reasons.
Pero, I have all the rights to be mad, diba?
Ugh.
Hindi ko na alam.
"Oh ba't parang ang lalim ata ng iniisip mo?" asar ni Kuya Lundren.
"Ah, yung projects kasi namin." I lie.
Sunday ngayon which means church day, which means family day.
We used to do this, every week until nawalan kami ng gana dahil sa death ni mommy. Pero, luckily, we get to do it again.
"Get rid of all bitterness, passion, and anger. No more shouting or insults, no more hateful feelings of any sort. Instead, be kind and tender-hearted to one another, and forgive one another, as God has forgiven you through Christ." Sermon ni Father.
Somehow I feel like this was meant for me. Dapat ko ba siyang patawarin? I would never know unless I let him explain.
"It's hard to forgive the hurtful,
But it's harder to be swallowed by pride.
Maybe life would be so much easier
If we all stuck each other and bide"
After ng mass, nag-aya si daddy na mag-lunch sa isang Bouchon restaurant.
"What do you want, Liah?" tanong ni daddy.
"I suggest you try their pork specialty, Liah. It's amazing." Sabi ni tita Aileen with matching hand waves pa.
"Sure tita, I'll get that." Sagot ko naman.
The thing is, I'm not really hungry. Hindi ko talaga mapigilang isipin kung tama ba 'tong ginagawa ko.
Maybe I'm just overreacting, aren't I?
Habang naghi-hintay, hindi ko maiwasang tumingin sa paligid ko.
It has this nature vibe in it.
It's quiet.
Relaxing.
Everything I ever wa-
"Good day, ma'am, sir. Here's your order." Bati ni kuyang waiter sa'min, we exchanged smiles and then he left.
While I was eating, hindi ko maiwasang mapag-isip.
Flashback
"Ang sarap netong barbecue!" ani ko habang kumakain. First time kong kumain ng street foods. Masarap din pala?
Nakita ko si Rye na nakatitig lang sakin pero hinayaan ko nalang, gutom ako eh.
"Hay nako, para kang bata. Tignan mo yan, ang dungis dungis mo oh." Tawa niya sabay punas sa akin.
Tinignan niya ko sa mga mata ko, somehow, it felt right.
Para bang kumakanta lahat ng organs ko tapos yung puso ko yung drums.
"A-ah, kain ka na rin." Kinakabahan kong pagsabi.
Ano ba 'tong nararamdaman ko?
End of flashback
YOU ARE READING
Chasing Rainbows
Novela JuvenilAlliah Lynelle Kai is a college student trying to find the colors at the end of a dark path called life. On her way, she meets certain people who would either act as a blessing, or a curse. Will she ever find the colors she's been searching for?
