Loving Universe // EDITING

Ten (2) ♥

let go

"Universe, let's talk." Pag-uwi ko ng bahay ay naroon si Mason sa sala at nag-iintay sakin.

"How many times did I say that I need space from you, that I want you to leave me alone?" Sabi ko at hinarap siya.

"You are not alone." He said in a unhappy tone.

"I am."

"I saw you before I got here, you're with that guy, sa may ice cream shop, you two look like you're having so much fun, you looks more happy with him than me!" He said with insecurities.

"Sinong kasama mo?" I asked with straight face, I'm fumming mad at him right now.

"Si Elisa." Simple niyang sabi.

"See? You can be with her but I can't be with him? Ask yourself, Mason, how unfair is that?" Tanong ko at natigil siya, I chuckled, "Ngayon hindi ka makasagot because its true, you aren't fair with me. Nasasakal na ako, Mason, know your place." I said at nakita kong napayuko siya.

"I'm sorry, dapat pala ay hindi na ako pumunta rito, I thought you'll understand." Sabi niya sa mahinang boses.

"Mason, I'm sorry, sinasabi ko lang ang nararamdaman ko." Sabi ko at hinawakan ang kanyang chin, kahit na galit ako ay agad akong naguilty ng makita ko ang malungkot niyang mukha.

Hindi siya gumalaw kahit pilit kong itaas ang kanyang baba.

"I understand." Sabi niya at hinawakan ang pulso ko at inilayo iyon sa kanya. "Bagay kayo, you're both from rich and famous families, you suit together, you'll click together, he looks like a good person, masyado lang siguro akong naging judgemental dahil nag-aalala ako sayo, I don't want you to get hurt." Sabi niya pagkatapos ay naglakad paalis ng bahay namin.

Now I feel damn guilty for saying those mean words to him. He's my bestfriend, I should've trusted him, he only wants what's good for me, for his bestfriend.

Tumakbo agad ako sa pinto to chase him, I'm not letting this day end without us being cool.

I hugged him from the back, natigil naman siya and I cried to his gray shirt.

"I'm sorry, you never failed to protect me, I'm sorry for being pointless, I know that you just cared, that you love me." I almost stuttered but ny words still formed well.

He held my hands around him. "You never failed to hurt me too." He said and I felt his lips to my hands. "I love you that it hurts me." Sabi niya at inalis ang kamay ko para maiharap ako sa kanya. "I love you." Sabi niya at niyakap ako ng maayos.

"I love you too." I said back, I know its pure friendship, that he only loves me as his bestfriend.

"I'm going to Cebu this weekend, Marco is coming with me, Can you please join us so you'll know him better?" Alok ko at agad siyang bumitiw sa yakap, I can smell his perfume on me.

"I don't have a ticket, at bakit ang bilis naman?" He asked.

"Malapit na ang pasukan, I want to atleast enjoy while it lasts." Sabi ko at unti unti siyang tumango.

"I'll text mommy so she can book me a ticket." Sabi niya at hinalikan ang aking noo. "Bye for now, you need to rest, ang baho mo na eh." Sabi niya at tumawa.

"Ang kapal mo! Chanel ang gamit kong pabango." Bawi ko sa kanyang asar.

"Whatever you say, maligo ka nalang." Sabi niya at ginulo ang buhok ko.

"Maligo ka narin! Amoy ewan ka na!" Sabi ko kahit na ang bango bango niya.

Pumasok ako sa bahay at dumiretso sa kwarto ko, ng nilock ko ang pinto ay umikot ikot ako ay inamoy ang sarili, I need to buy his perfume so I can always smell like him.

Maybe I can love him, yung mababaw lang para hindi malalim ang sakit, yung kinikilig lang kahit paano, yung hindi lalampas sa linya.

I texted Marco and Mason the details about my flight, I hope they'll get to know each other to this trip. I texted my Papa that I'll go to Cebu with Mason and Marco.

I kept my dress to my cabinet, I won't wear this ever again.

I rewatched our favorite tv show, since season four is still on its way on January.

He sees himself as Bellamy and I'm Octavia, but I see him as Lincoln.

But Lincoln loves Octavia since the start and Mason doesn't do the same to me.

I typed a text for Mason again.

Me:

You can bring Elisa so we can know each other better. :)

Baka sa pamamagitan nito, I'll learn to let go, I'll learn to let go the feelings na dapat hindi nasakin.