SOBER IN THE CITY

Welcome to Hollywood

May 11th at 10:34PM by Sara [277 comments]

TareBear911: So, now you're just friends with Mr. I Can't Date a Newcomer?

BoysRUs: Well, yeah. I guess.

TareBear911: And you're not even a little bit interested in growing old and sober together?

I rolled my eyes, even though I knew Tara couldn't see me. I'd been so busy with my program stuff lately, going to meetings, working on my step work (I'd just finished up Step 3, which meant the dreaded 4th step was up next) and doing fellowship that I hadn't been able to catch up with Tara. In fact, she'd just taken to reading my blogs to see what I'd been up to. I always knew I'd written a good blog when there was an IM on my desktop by the time I walked into work in the morning.

BoysRUs: I can't lie...I liked the guy. But he's got his rules and I don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me. Besides, it's all gonna work out the way it's supposed to.

TareBear911: That's mighty Zen of you.

BoysRUs: Well, people change...

TareBear911: OR you have your eye set on a different sort of candy. Like maybe a famous one?

BoysRUs: ?????

TareBear911: Come on...tell me who Mr. Hollywood is! Don't make a gossip girl beg!

I bit my lower lip and contemplated how to answer. Tara had been my oldest friend since I moved to New York and I'd never held anything back from her. Well, except for my budding alcoholism, but I hadn't really known I had a problem really until she mentioned it in the first place.

BoysRUs: You know I want to, but it's an anonymous program. I just feel kind of funny about breaking his anonymity. If we were dating, it would be different, because then I could totally tell you all about my boyfriend.

A few seconds went by before Tara messaged me back.

TareBear911: Are you sure that's the only reason you won't tell me?

BoysRUs: What do you mean?

TareBear911: I just feel like we've been drifting apart the last month.

TareBear911: Like that's the reason you won't tell me about your new famous boy toy.

BoysRUs: Of course not!

BoysRUs: I'm only trying to respect HIS privacy. I mean, the name of the program is called Alcoholics Anonymous. If it was called Alcoholics Semi-Anonymous, I would tell you who he was in a heartbeat.

TareBear911: Promise?

BoysRUs: Cross my heart.

BoysRUs: You know not telling you is killing me, right?

TareBear911: Yeah, I know. I've never seen you shy away from a chance to spread a little celebrity gossip.

TareBear911: Guess you are changing.

BoysRUs: No shit. It's blowing my mind, too.

TareBear911: But Sar...