Imperfect Introvert

Chapter-5: The Real Me

Amanda

This other day I was at the gym with Andrea.

For few years or from the time I started going to the gym, I had almost convinced everyone that I am perfect and all the flaws and downs in my life don't affect me at all, there was just this one person I was unable to convince the same thing who was..

Amanda. Myself.

But the way people display their hate for me was another fact that shattered me from within.

But the fact they show their hate didn't break me, what affected me was their hate for nothing, absolutely nothing.

When their mere gaze is enough to burn holes on my body then what is the need of actions???

I might be over-exaggerating things, you might think, every word I said is truthful.

When I entered the gym with my I-LOVE-MYSELF facade and started playing on the table, first thing what Cameo did was to inform Ray and his fr..group of cronies, that we have arrived and thus their presence in the gym is not required as it will somehow lead to the ultimate happiness in two innocent girls lives, which might lead into destruction of the whole damn world.

Right, here we talk about equality.

It is obvious that the game is played among three or four people, so what is the better way to insure that we give up playing and stop coming to the gym if we cannot play the game.

A good strategy worked by someone who is uneducated.

He knew that this thing affects but not to that degree that we leave the place we love. So as I and Andrea are both music person, being vocals, music is really important in anyone's life, so he made the only comfort we had in there of our choice of good music he even snatched that on purpose.

So he knew very well the song that I and Andrea loathed and surely the same song boomed from the speaker when he changed the song.

Okay, it could be a coincidence. Agreed.

He looked my way and I shifted my face from a sneer to a smirk in a heartbeat.

I popped my head and clicked my fingers pretending to love the track and the next instant the song is changed.

Another coincidence. Maybe.

The next one was even more unbearable than the first one but I kept my facade on even then. Andrea followed the suit, what I think is no one even bothers to bother her everyone is after my happiness, my life.

The music player was turned off in the next moment. Surely, must be tired of music, wasn't he??

He switched on the t.v and a new song played from it which I didn't acknowledge right away as I was really busy in the game.

He went to the restroom.

The moment I realised the song is one of my favourites by chance, I started singing the song and even swayed a little.

The moment he came out and found me singing the song, he practically fumed and changed the song.

Coincidence..really?? Well your opinion.

I was so disturbed by his efforts to just irritate me and the fact that he cannot bear seeing me happy for even a second, just led me to a single question.

What had I done wrong for all this hate?

From family, classmates, people and humans overall..

Just tell me right away so at least I could mend it.

A piece of information for the whole world is the 'Dictionary of Insults' for healthy people is entirely different from those of thin people.

The most forbidden insult or I should say the most forbidden word in our dictionary is 'FAT' which stands for Fucking Abnormal Threat.

The use of the 'forbidden word' causes instant and extreme pain which is equivalent to a crucio but has an Avada Kedavra effect.

The world from a healthy person's point of view is also different from a thin person's point of view.

One can not throw insults in the fear of getting hurt badly.

One can not eat what he/she likes just because some damn perfect people can not and can never give them respect.

One does not express her/himself for the fear of getting laughed at.

One does not attempt to make friends in the fear of rejection.

One cannot live properly because their life and happiness are overshadowed by perfect people.

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Rejection..

It so happens in nature, it selects the best

It selects the favourable one and eliminates the rest.

Perhaps the principles of life are the same

Perfect ones are inherited with fame but the imperfect are subjected to shame.

So the question is how would the imperfect survive??

Is it necessary that we are to morph our lives.

To forget the uniqueness and fit in the crowd

Or else prepare for the worst and rest forever under a shroud.

Natural selection led to evolution of a new mankind

Which facilitates fake and mean and nice and honest are hard to find.

There would be a day when only the perfect are left

The imperfect but kind would have been worldwide swept.

By- Alex_Granger

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Love, Alex