Imperfect Introvert

A weird Proposal (part 2)

Amanda

"I love you.."

Those words were like an electric bolt that had hit me. Like it was almost a year and a half I had met him and I never could have imagined this would happen...

RALPH CONFESSING HIS LOVE FOR ME?????

Well ofcourse my mind was brimming with questions...Questions that I had never thought I would ask myself..

Was this a prank??? Why would he prank me??? Did his friend put him up to this?? Does he really love me??When did he fall for me??

And most importantly...Do I love him back???

Well as for now I had no definate answer to any one of those questions. So I crumpled the sheet of paper in my hand, walked towards my home and looked at my grandma looking at me weirdly as if she can already predict something is wrong or different about me.

I hid the piece of paper in my bag and changed myself into my daily clothes.
After dinner I laid down on my bed and thought about the chit he gave me.

So I do accept that all the moments I had spent with him were obviouslly some of the best and if i may say so happiest moments of my life. But can that be called as love??

Was I really that special for him that he would be ready to accept me as his and can he be that special someone I had imagined in my mind...

Honestly I had no idea.

Well I decided its nothing more than a freaking prank and so I decided not to react to anything and let him make fun of me.

So the next day when I entered the bus, I wanted to walk straight to my friend amd sit next to her but he just spot me rushing past in the bus and called for me.

"Heya Amanda..." He smiled up at me.

Well that smile wasnt his usual cocky one which he used to flash all the time, it was something different..something a lot more genuine..something was changed about him.

"Heya Ralph.." I smiled back.

He patted the seat next to him and exchanged glances with his friend.

"Come here girlie I have saved ya a seat.."

He is behaving different, not the usual game partner type but the "hey we are the besties and I saved ya a seat type".

I took a deep breath and settled down beside him and tried my best to not get as awkward as I feel right now.

He looked at me with a glint of hope in his eyes and I just didnt feel to say anything because maybe I realised that this all was not a prank. Maybe.

" So uhm what do you think ??" He said after a long pause.

Mission abort...mission abort...I have not thought about anything for now.

"Uhm..about what..??" I hope he has forgotten about it.

"That chit..about me..Amy...." He said and then Oh My God, he blushed and looked up at me.

And done there is no going back from this place. I need to face this and face this with utter caution.

"Oh that chit..oh god Ralph man...good try dearie...but it wasnt enough to make me fool, you joker...Good try though.."

Please please please god make this a prank from his side or no dont..Why though????...Do I..Do I...feel something for him??

"That...that...wasnt a prank Amy..ofcourse it wasnt..." He looked at me with a hurt look on his face.

This is it. I need to decide now. I am on the end of the rope.

"Ralph..I am..I am really not sure how I feel about you...honestly..I never thought about you in this way...and well to be honest with you I never supposed that someone like you would ever fall for someone like me...Well really...what exactly do I have..." I went on blaberring.

Thats when he just put his finger on my lips and I was just stunned out of this world.

"Amy...you are the sweetest, nicest most cute and well if I may say so a rather talented girl..I love you the way you are...okiee??" He said and smiled.

That moment something inside me warmed up for the first time. The feeling was unrecognizable but it, it felt good.

"Uhm..really..you..you...think like that..." I said blushing a bit.

"Mhmm..." He nodded his head and smiled.

And at that moment I had made my decision.

"Then Ralph...I think I love you too"

And at that moment life seemed to be perfect for the very first time.

Well then as they say all good things must come to an end.

The next year I had to leave for the other block where my elementary education comes to an end but Ralph had another year to stay and thus our busses seperated and so did our ways.

I waited for him every day to come and meet me up but duhhh he never turned up.

I decided to go meet him myself but they wont let me enter the elementary block. We did used to see each other but he never acknowledged me.

So years later I got to know when someone asked him did he have a past with me, I was hoping of some sorta regrettful remark or missing her remark and all he said was "Yeah more or less like an exercise ball she was...bleh...."

Well I dunno why but that didnt took me by surprise although somehow I had expected this but still I wished him to be different.

Coz I maybe his 100th girl or something but he was my first, my very first boy (atleast thats what he was supposed to be)

Well I had just hope that someone would atleast not make fun of something which is supposed to be the purest thing in the world.

Love.

But then I realised being the first priority and the last wish of someone was not in my destiny.

Alteast not for now.

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⚜️ YOU LEFT⚜️ (read the caption)

You took away what was mine,
A dim twilight that used to shine,
You were so close you touched my heart,
You took it and returned the shattered parts.

Left me with the truth that I cared,
Smile and tears together we had shared,
Tell me how i ll make you fade,
So your memories would never invade.

Soon the reality flashed in front of my eyes,
I was a game you played and you played it wise,
White lies of love and fake words of promises,
I thought you were a saint but you came out as arch nemesis.

My love, you became the one who pushed me in the hole,
I let down my guards and you just ripped apart my soul,
You filled me with pain and the emotions narrowed down to none,
The hurt destined of every pure love it is just a poison..💔

By Alex

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Alex