The 2nd Book of Me

The Big News

Okay, so I have news. And it's huge.

I'm nominated for homecoming court.

I don't mean the initial nominations where there are like 10 or so people that are elected to then move to the next nominations of four girls. I mean I'm like, in the final four or whatever that is. I didn't find out that I was even in the "initial" nominations until 4th period, and I then found out in the afternoon announcements that I'd moved on. I think.

To be honest, I'm so having an internal conflict right now. Part of me is kind of excited, because come on. I'm part of the homecoming court, and I'm going to be able to walk during the pep rally, in front of everyone with a cute dress on. I don't really care about popularity and stuff at all, that just isn't me. But it's still a proud moment, you know?

I'm mostly nervous and scared. Nervous, because although it'll be cool to walk out with the other girls and actually feel pretty for once, I'm really scared about what people will actually think the day of. And, for that matter, up until then too. Word will get around about me, and although I'll be nice to people like I always try to be, it's still going to be hard because of my social issues.

And what if people whisper about me when I walk out to the gym floor, saying, "Why did she get nominated, again? Of all people?"

I'm scared because of how nervous I am. And I'm also scared to talk to the other girls in the homecoming court, because they actually should be there. They're pretty and popular, unlike average me. And for me to try to fit in with those girls, even for just this week, I'm still afraid.

I am excited, though. And I'm honored. I bet I'll feel proud once the nerves leave, and I bet I'll feel this extreme rush of happiness when I walk out there, and think, "wow, Danielle. You did something like this."

I already have accepted that I'm not going to win the princess title. Had I known I was even initially nominated, I wouldn't have expected to get to the final four. But now that I got here, I definitely know I'm not getting any further.

I guess I'll be a little more excited closer to time, but right now it's sinking in on how much of a responsibility this is. I have to find out all this crap through the course of this week, and prepare.

Ugh. But still, I'm glad I'm in it. ☻

If you're proud or voted for me, you go, Glen Coco.

-Danielle, potential princess. :)

Ps. Expect both a new chapter and Louis and the Lost Boys sometime this week, and a spirit week entry in this book once my week is over! So I can tell you about homecoming and stuff. Yay!

Until next time, peace out, Girl Scouts! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧