The 2nd Book of Me

Random Flashback...

Can I just tell you guys about a time I miss?

It was when school was still in, and I was walking from my classroom to the cafeteria. I usually met there after school with my friends because we stayed after a lot and two of my friends' rides came or left later. So all my closest friends were standing in front of the cafeteria.

They were all huddled together and none of them saw me. Halley and Brooke were next to Camila and they were reading something from Camila's tablet. I just looked on and thought, those three are my best friends. It was like I was looking in third person, like I wasn't actually there.

Halley looked up and said, "Danny's here!" And started toward me, and Brooke yelled after her; "Dani!"

I smiled wide as they ran toward me and braced myself for a big hug. They beat hugged me and took me over to Camila, where she was generating 'would you rather' things. We all started playing a game of would you rather, and in that moment it was just us and I feared one day it would change.

Things like that make me really upset. It's just the little pointless things that I hate, the memories that I love but haunt me. I can't believe Brooke almost doesn't exist anymore, and she won't be there to run and hug me like she always did. And I do have my other friends, but it's almost like it's changed somehow.

It's sad because I know I won't be happy next year. I won't like any of my teachers (I know what they're like because of my brother being a year older than me), and I'll have so much work to do all the time. And after that, my brother is leaving next summer for New York.

And that's one less friend I have too. :(

Of course, Halley will be gone after that too, and Camila will be the only one left.

But when everyone leaves, it will hurt. :(