The 2nd Book of Me

Classes, Friends... AH!

Ah, how life has played out since I updated last... Things have just been incredibly stressful for me for the last few weeks, and I just need a break. Why, you ask? Well, the main reason is me trying to adapt to the fact that I'm turning 16. Yeah. As most of you know, my birthday is at the end of this month, and finally I'll grow to be possibly the most important age in my life.

I get that turning 16 really isn't that big of a deal, but to me it is. I mean, sweet 16. Come on. I've been so focused on trying to prepare myself mature wise that I guess I've lost track of some things, things that I feel pretty crappy for. For one thing, as my school has done an even crappier job in guiding us with keeping up with work and stuff, I've fallen behind in picking up their slack. It's my fault, but it's still sad. I will do everything I can this trimester to better myself and the way I feel about school. Because right now, the thought of school makes me want to puke.

I had a science fair Saturday, which I said I would write about but didn't. I started the part but didn't bother to get halfway through it. I had been working on my science fair project with my brother and a freshman for like 4 weeks, and the science fair was finally Saturday. My teammates weren't there, so the presentation was up to me. I felt really nervous but was more professional than I ever remember being in my life. I want so badly to learn from that and apply that to the new trimester.

Somehow, I won an award. I remember the exclusive second round judge asking me how my project on adolescent phobias could impact healthcare. I bullcrapped something that I thought could be a valid answer, me being a health student and all, and the answer I gave earned me an award along with a 30$ cash prize.

Yay. :)

Other than that, a new trimester started today. I've tried so hard to keep up with my teachers, and did the best I could. I guess I'll see how that turns out. Now, my classes are maybe a little easier for some reason. I feel like maybe this is the start of something new.

I guess since my classes changed I'll go over them really quick.

FIRST PERIOD: Mr. Campbell, Human Body Systems (still). Same class, same work. But it's SO much easier now that Camila and I are friends again, and I'll get to that in a second.

SECOND PERIOD: Mr. Gray, World History. Same period. This class has caused me the most stress, though, because I have no motivation in that class and I just feel exhausted. I've tried my best, but it's so hard for me. Now, I have no friends in there.

THIRD PERIOD: Mrs. Weaver (Ms. Little), English 2. I put two teachers because my real teacher is on maternity leave, and the one in parenthesis is my permanent sub until Mrs. Weaver comes back. But Brooke is in there, which is awesome. And I love English.

LUNCH: 3rd, with Brooke.

FOURTH PERIOD: Mr. Spears, Algebra 2. Still. Nothing has changed, except now there are all these girls in that class that swoon over Mr. Spears and it's annoying. I sound like a hypocrite, but it's complicated. Enough said.

FIFTH PERIOD: Ms. Humes, Science. I like her already. We just did a get to know each other activity today, but I like my teacher already. My brother liked her last year, now I do too. If someone had to replace Mr. Ruggles, I'm glad it was her.

So yeah, those are my classes that switched today. I actually like them for the most part, except for second period. Which to be honest I've never liked and never will. It's not the teacher, but the class and the work.

Anyway, another thing that's happened recently (and why this chapter is dedicated to @owlwaytoday ) is my friendship coming back to life between me and Camila. For a while, we had this huge misunderstanding and avoided each other because we were hurt. It was no ones fault, but it tested our friendship and made us even stronger.

Since we became friends again, nothing is awkward at all. We don't even really talk about our friend separation much, and when we do it isn't negative. To be honest, I had lost a friend I dearly cared about, but then she came back good as new. She is the friend I had freshman year, though not at all the same person. She's better, and grown up. I guess you can say we both grew up.

Camila, if you're reading this (I hope you are), I want to formally thank you for what's happened. I'm glad things are the way they are with us now, and I really hope they stay that way. I don't want to lose you again, and my life is way better now that you're in it. Your thoughts and opinions matter so much to me, and you influence me so much. Thanks for being such a good friend. I appreciate you. :)

Of course, Brooke has also been a good friend. She hasn't stopped. I actually gave her a friendship necklace on homecoming day (it came in a jewelry pack that was on sale when I was shopping for homecoming court stuff), and she literally has wore it every day since then. Not only that, she really understands me more than she ever has and she's just always so kind and pleasant.

So Brooke, if you're reading this (who knows), thank you too for being so awesome. You brighten my life, and I'm so glad you're in classes with me still.

Sometimes, I don't know what I would do without them. Oh, how sappy...

I guess if you look at the glass half full, my life hasn't been too cruddy the last week or so. I had a fantastic time celebrating my mom's birthday, I'm in a new trimester, and my friends and I are closer than ever. Sure, I'm a little worried, but doesn't every teen have to worry a little bit? It's our job, after all.

If you look at things in a good POV, you go Glen Coco. :)

-Danielle