The 2nd Book of Me

Rant About Life

Okay guys, so I've been a little lackadaisical about this book. I've actually been writing a lot of this kind of stuff in my book called Keep Calm And Write To Your Friends, it's about school which I mention in what I wrote so look at that if you want. I am actually working on a lot of stuff for Wattpad right now, one of which is a chapter in this book about Elias and I's first "date" last Saturday. It's almost a week overdue and I'm sorry. :(

Anyway, below is a rant that I did typing as fast as I can. For some reason that really helps me when I'm feeling down so sorry about the flow and everything. If you have any advice I'd love to hear it.

I'll update soon guys.

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Here's the thing I wrote:

So the first thing I want to address is my mood swings. I've had them ever since I turned from a child to a pre-teen, so for me since I was about 10 years old. I should be used to it by now I guess and I shouldn't always feel sorry for myself about it. But it's really hard. Recently I've been really stressed, worried, and sensitive. Sensitive in a lot if ways; socially when it comes to pressure, sadness, anxiety, happiness, anger, you name it. I swear even I have had trouble with identifying my feelings. Mostly right now it's been stress, sadness and anger. I keep yelling at my boyfriend and giving him attitude for no reason. We don't have any problems with our relationship and never really fight, yet because he's so important to me the side that I try and conceal lashes out on him. And to be honest that isn't really fair to him! Today was a good example, and really the reason I'm writing this. In my senior medical class (I've done the school part of what used to be in this book in my other book called Keep Calm & Write To Your Friends. So if you're wondering about my school life since I haven't put it in here you should go check it out.), I had no clue what we were talking about. Everyone was working so well and Camila and I were lost. I just started crying and I felt my heart literally rip in half because I didn't know the information and I've been worried about getting things done all the time in there. I cried a lot. And when the bell rang for lunch, that's when I met Elias and took everything out on him. I switched from sadness to anger and was so rude to him even though he was trying to help. I couldn't even carry on conversation with him and Camila because I was just focused on proving Elias wrong. And then I realized what happened. I cried again. Again! In a 20 minute time span! And here's what's worse, I've been tired and I was stressed tonight before I laid down and I cried AGAIN. Nowadays all I do is yell, give attitude and cry. My happy moments now are either ones where I can totally forget my bad emotions or where I know it will end and I'll soon be back to being stressed and upset. I feel like I'm hurting my boyfriend, my friends, my family and myself. I don't know what I have to do or change about myself but it's getting a little out of control. :(

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Deep huh... Well anyway... If you still read this book, you go, Glen Coco. :(

-Danielle