The Bulletproof Friendship (Book 1) || #LOVEYOURSELFAWARDS

Chapter 10 - Forgotten Memories

Darkness. Pitch black darkness. It was just darkness and him. Not a sight of light. Did he die? Or is he in a place where people go before they die? Do people choose if they would want to die or not? Jungkook has been thinking about death for a while. How that he is unwanted by the people around him. Once in awhile, he would think how suicide works. But he would be reminded of his parents. Sometimes, he doesn't believe that his parents are his real parents because they seem, different. Different from the parents he used to know. Right now, It feels like he is floating in an endless space. A space where there is no escape.

A little light was floating around his head. It then went further away from him. He tried following it but he was not budging. It's like that he couldn't go anywhere. Like he was glued to one place. The light then became bigger. A memory played from it.

"Aww. Look at him. He is so cute." His mom said. "What will be his name?" His dad asked her. "Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook." Baby Jungkook laughed and smiled. He grabbed his mom's finger and played with it. Jungkook made cute baby sounds. "Jungkook, you will go home today! Aren't you excited?" She asked him, smiling. He just made another baby sound which she confirms it as a yes. She snuggled Jungkook's nose and he laughed.

It was a forgotten memory that played. A memory when Jungkook was born. The most happiest moment that happened in his parents lives. At least, that is what he thinks. His parents have been acting differently towards him. It feels like, they do not know him at all.

Another one of the lights came and played another memory. Probably multiple memories.

"By the way, I'm Kim Taehyung. Come on, let me help you up."

It was the day when he met Taehyung. The day when he was saved from those bullies.

"I wish we went to the same school! We would see each other everyday then!" Taehyung said to Jungkook while swinging. Jungkook nods in reply, hoping for the same thing.

He remembered. When Taehyung was in a different school from he.

"Jungkook.. Jungkook!" Taehyung shouted from across the corridor. Jungkook looked up surprise. He saw Taehyung running at him. "Jungkook!" He jumped in for a hug. Jungkook smiled happily and he hugged him back. "I can't believe you are here." Taehyung pulls back then he realized that Jungkook was at the same school as he. "What are you doing here?" He asked. "My parents told me to change school. I didn't really like my past school." Jungkook explained. Taehyung smiled at him. "Well. Later lunch, I'll let you meet my friends! I'll make you join my group!" He insisted. "Are you sure? Will they like me?" He asked feeling a bit nervous. "Of course! I'll make them to let you join! No matter what!" Taehyung grinned widely.

It was when Jungkook changed school. He was new there and he didn't know that Taehyung would be there too.

"Now you know all of us!" Taehyung looks at the younger one and smiles. "What should we do later?" Hoseok asks. "Let's play Jenga at my house?" Namjoon suggests. "No, no. You would just lose." Seokjin says declining the suggestion. Namjoon slammed his hand at the table standing up. "Come on, face it hyung, you are the 'God of Destruction'." Jimin said. "That's true." Namjoon replies hating to admit that it is the truth and sits back down. They all laugh again.

The time when Taehyung introduced him to them. Many other memories played and they were, happy. But it stopped when, it was the day before Jimin's birthday.

The memory that showed shocked him. It brought him to tears. He was surprised and relieved that he was still alive. But the only thing that damaged him was his head.

"Hey Jungkook!" Jimin called out smiling. Jungkook just glared at him then walked away. "Jungkook?" His smile turned upside down.

He became cold that day. He became the school jerk that day too.

"Hey Daeyeon, can you give me your lunch?" Jungkook asked. "What no! Why would I give you my lunch?" Jungkook grabbed the shirt of Daeyeon and it frightened her. "Give. It." He demanded. Her hands were shaking as she slowly hands over her lunch. He grabs it then he dropped her down. He then walks away. "What am I going to eat now?" She asked herself, traumatized from the experience.

How can he be this cold? How can he do this to other people? One thing is that he remembers that his parents don't make him food anymore. Since, they were often in business trips.

Jungkook and Seokjin raced against each other. Jungkook then bumped Seokjin on the side and he fell arm first. Jungkook's team won first. He approached Seokjin who was in pain. "I never thought you were weak. You half wit." He said to him then left him lying on the ground.

He even hurt his hyung. How could he do this?

"Please." Jinseong pleaded. "Hmm, what's the score for this?" Jungkook asks while holding the homework of Jinseong up high. "It's 30 points! I need to pass this!" She said. "Let me copy it then. We don't have the same teacher anyways." Jungkook replied to her. "No! Do your own homework!" She said out loud. She grabbed the paper from Jungkook but he tried to pull it back. They've been pulling the paper until, it tore apart. This shocked Jinseong but Jungkook just releases the torn paper from his hands. "Useless paper." He says. Jinseong ran to her locker, crying. He walked to his class along with Mingyu then as he turned the corner, he saw Jimin. Eyes furrowed at him.

How can he be that mean to her?

A voice then spoke to him from somewhere. "You are not wanted by anyone. You are hated by everyone. You parents don't love you anymore unlike before. People change, things change, the world changes. There is nothing you can do about. Choose death and you will be free. Their lives will be happier without you. Choose to live, the world will get harder no matter what you will do. More conflicts will come. Conflicts that you cannot avoid. Live and their lives will become harder too. Choose. Death or Life?"

As what Jungkook said before, he would sometimes think of death. He would want to commit suicide but he wouldn't because of his parents. He feels hated by the world. Even his past friends hate him. As conclusion,

He would choose the choice he wants.