One And Done: Spoby One Shots

Trying (Part 4)

"Where's Daddy?" Kayleigh asked Spencer as she decorated the Christmas tree with the tot on her hip.

"He's at work sweetie" Spencer informed her. Spencer looked at the clock. Toby was two hours late. He had texted her that something had come up and they could talk about it when he got home.

Finally the door opened and Toby entered the house with snow on his head and shoulders.

"Hey, I was wor...." Spencer trailed off as a young boy followed in behind him.

"Spencer, Kayleigh, this is Chase" Toby said "Chase, this is my wife Spencer and my daughter Kayleigh"

"Hi" he said forcing the smallest smile on his face.

"Buddy" Toby said clapping a hand on the boys back "there's a guest bedroom up stairs, down the hall to the right. You can sleep there tonight. Why don't you go put your stuff up there and I'll get us some food."

"Ok" he said as he slowly walked up the stairs.

Spencer turned her stare to Toby.

"His parents were killed in a car accident tonight. The chief asked me if we'd take him tonight since we have the foster license so he didn't have to go to a group home on Christmas Eve." Toby said as he plated food for him and Chase.

"You're not thinking of adopting him because we agreed we'd wait a couple years and focus on just Kayleigh before we adopt again."

"No" Toby said "He has an uncle who was named to be his guardian. He's out in Seattle and will be here the day after Christmas"

"Ok" Spencer said still not fully believing him.

Chase spent Christmas with the Cavanaughs and on the 26th Spencer and Toby went to the lawyers office with Chase to meet with his uncle.

"Hey Champ" the guy said hugging him.

"Uncle Steve, are you going to move in the house with me or am I moving to Seattle with you?"

"Uh well have to see after I talk to the lawyer" Steve said.

Spencer and Toby sat in the waiting room with Chase while Steve talked to the lawyer.

"Hey Champ" Steve said as he came out of the office "I've been thinking and I don't think I'm the best person to be your guardian. I'm too busy with my band and work. I'm out all hours of the night. That's no life for a nine year old boy. The lawyer is going to call a nice lady that will find you a good home."

"You don't want to be my dad?" Chase said with a forlorn look.

"I'm not a dad, Chase. I wouldn't be a good dad. I'm your uncle. That's what I'm good at."  Steve said.

"Who's gonna be my dad?" Chase cried.

"Chase come on man don't cry" Steve said with a hint of annoyance.

"Spence?" Toby whispered.

She looked at him and his pleading eyes. Spencer knew Toby wanted to foster Chase. They had agreed on not adopting again for a couple years. They wanted to spend quality time with Kayleigh and let her be an only child for a little while.

Spencer melted at the little boy crying that he didn't have a dad. Toby wanted to be a dad to a little boy. He loved Kayleigh to pieces but Spencer knew just like there was a special bond between a mother and daughter, there was also a special bond between a father and a son. They had agreed the next adoption would be a boy but they had also agreed next time they'd adopt an infant.

"I'm calling Louise" Spencer said referring to the case manager that had helped with Kayleigh's foster and adoption case.

"Chase" Toby began "how would you feel about staying with me and Spencer a little while and if you don't get completely sick of us we'll adopt you."

"Ok" Chase said quietly.

******6 Months Later******

"Toby can I talk to you a minute?" Spencer whispered to Toby as he and Chase got ready for his championship soccer game.

"Yeah" he said as they stepped into their room.

"I took a pregnancy test" Spencer said smiling. "I made an appointment with the doctor for after Chase's game."

"I don't want to get excited yet" she said "just because I'm pregnant doesn't mean the baby will even be viable."

Toby just nodded. He could only imagine how Spencer was feeling. Her obstetrician had been very pessimistic for a healthy naturally conceived baby.

Spencer and Toby took the kids to the game.  Peter and Veronica met them there. They had been spending a lot of quality time with Kayleigh and Chase.

"Can you take Chase and Kayleigh for a couple hours after the game" Spencer said nonchalantly. She didn't want anyone to know about their pregnancy until they had spoken to the doctor.

"What are you and Toby going to do?" Her mom asked.

"We're gonna have sex" Spencer said sarcastically.

"Ok, have your secret outing" Veronica said.

When Spencer and Toby got to the doctor's office they were both on pins and needles. After a half an hour the doctor confirmed that Spencer was two months pregnant.

"Is the baby okay?" Spencer asked.

"The baby looks ok at this point but it's hard to tell. Once you get to 12 weeks we will do an amniocentesis and that will be able to tell us a lot more."

"Ok" Spencer said.

"It's a good sign that the baby made it to two months right?" Spencer asked looking for something to grasp on for hope.

"Yes and no" the doctor said "miscarriages most often happen between the 7th and 12th weeks. Even if the baby makes it to twelve weeks, the risk for miscarriage is still there."

Spencer just nodded.

Toby noticed Spencer was quiet on the way home.

"What are you thinking?" He asked taking her hand.

"There's something wrong with the baby" Spencer said flatly.

"The doctor said the baby was ok right now" Toby said

"Then the doctor said 'even if the baby makes it to twelve weeks' Toby" Spencer snapped "that means she doesn't think the baby will make it that far."

"We'll just take it one day at a time" Toby said.

***
Toby had just gotten to the police station after capturing a thief that had robbed a jewelry store.   Toby was just finishing up the paperwork when the phone rang. He could hear the receptionist answer the phone.

A minute later she was at his side.

"Officer Cavanaugh" she said hesitantly "that was your mother in law. Your wife is in the hospital"

Toby raced to the hospital kicking himself for not asking why she was in the hospital.

The nurse directed him down a hall where he saw Veronica typing away furiously at her phone.

"Mrs. Hastings" he said when he reached her.

"Toby" Veronica said grimly "Spencer had a miscarriage. I didn't even know she was pregnant."

"We didn't want to tell anyone until she made it to the second trimester." Toby said "what happened? She was fine this morning"

"All I know is that she had a miscarriage" Veronica responded.

Toby stepped into the room and walked over to Spencer enveloping her in a hug.

"I'm sorry baby" Toby said "what happened?"

He pictured her this morning as he left for work. It was early Saturday morning. Kayleigh had teetered into their room and snuggled up to Spencer. He bent over giving each of them a kiss.

"I woke up and I had pain in my back and when I went to get out of bed, that's when I saw the blood" she whimpered.

Toby held Spencer for a long time. He hoped that Spencer didn't slip back into a depression like she had before. It was different now. They had two kids depending on them now.

"I wanna go home" she sobbed into his chest.