One And Done: Spoby One Shots

After 7x20

So this is just a little one shot that I came up with. I have some more partial chapters for other stories that I'm still working on. Also I left a few ideas in here that I could make into one shots so let me know what you think.

"Toby, I'm tired," Spencer whined. It was almost four am and for the third night in a row they were rehashing everything that had gone on throughout their relationship. Nothing completely satisfied Toby that she was in fact Spencer and not Alex. Nothing convinced him he'd picked the right twin. Not even the feel of her flesh against his would do it, not that they'd tried. Toby had slept with Alex twice not noticing the difference.

"We're almost done," Toby said taking a sip of coffee, "tell me about Georgetown."

Three days ago Spencer had hoped that Toby would have been convinced well before they got to the last chapter of their relationship. The memories, though some time ago now, were still raw.

"I went to Georgetown" Spencer began, "things were hard. I was free from A. It was the beginning of the rest of my life, but I missed you so much. Classes were a lot harder than I thought they would be. I thought about transferring to Hollis a couple of times."

"You never told me that?" Toby questioned.

"Because every time I seriously considered it, I panicked that if I came back to Rosewood that I'd get stuck."

When Toby didn't say anything she continued.

"My parents wouldn't have approved. We probably would've moved in together, before long it would have been marriage and pregnancy, you and me with 2.5 kids and a fricking golden retriever and I just.....wasn't ready."

"I know" Toby mumbled clearly thinking about their breakup.

"But there's a difference between not being ready and not wanting it ever." Spencer said her voice cracking.

Toby and Spencer shared a look before Toby urged her to get back to their timeline.

"Things were hard...."

"You came to visit me for our anniversary. I got my roommate to sleep at her boyfriends so we could be alone. We made love twice that night and once in the morning. Unprotected. Five weeks later, I called you in a panic thinking I was pregnant. We fought. And the test was positive."

"You can stop now." Toby said putting a comforting hand on her shoulder, as tears streamed down her face.

"No, I never told you. I couldn't form the words. I convinced myself it wasn't fair. I didn't want you to hurt the way I hurt."

"What are you talking about?" Toby asked confused.

"I accepted it." Spencer said "Toby and me and baby makes three. You were right, It was what we both were planning for....eventually and eventually had just come sooner than expected. I accepted it."

"And then you lost the baby."

"And you." Spencer added.

"I was heartbroken for months and months. I didn't eat. I didn't sleep. You don't know how many times I wanted to just drive to Rosewood and crawl into your bed and have you hold me."

"You could have called me."

"I thought you hated me."

"I could never hate you."

Spencer wiped the tears from her face and sighed hoping it was finally time for sleep.

"I'm sorry Spencer." Toby said "I know you're Spencer but it's just this little voice that keeps whispering 'yeah but what if you were wrong?'"