One And Done: Spoby One Shots

Crash and Burn (pt 2)

Spencer woke with Toby's arm wrapped tightly around her waist as if he were a small child and she was his stuffed animal. It had been two weeks since Yvonne's passing and Toby and Spencer slept this way every night. Everyone in her life had questioned it. Spencer found herself answering the same barrage of questions over and over.

No, they weren't back together.

No, they weren't "sleeping" with each other.

Spencer began to wonder how long this was going to last. She didn't want to press Toby or say something she'd regret. Truth be told this living situation was tearing her heart to shreds. She had Toby but then again she didn't. Didn't he know what this was doing to her?

Not being able to take it anymore Spencer got out of bed and went into the kitchen for coffee. She poured a second cup for Toby when she heard him stirring in the bed.

"Morning" he mumbled rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. He had never been a morning person, whereas Spencer was always an early bird. The combination had made for some interesting sleepovers.

"Morning" Spencer replied "What's on your agenda for today?"

"I have a meeting with my therapist" Toby said.

"So therapy is going good?" Spencer asked although she doubted it seeing as he was still clutching her like a security blanket every night.

"Yeah" Toby responded.

That was all he ever said in regards to his therapy. It annoyed Spencer that he wouldn't talk about it with her when she had talked at length with him about her therapy. She wondered what he was even telling his therapist. Surely she wouldn't be condoning this behavior.

Toby's cellphone rang and he answered it quickly.

"Yes sir" Toby said jotting down stuff on a post it. "I'll see you at 2."

"Who was that?" Spencer asked after hanging up.

"It was a contractor, about a job opening" Toby said.

"A contractor? You're going back to working construction?"

"I thought about getting back on the force but I always loved building things and I'm ready for a fresh start so it's perfect." Toby said smiling.

"Toby that's so great" Spencer said grinning wildly. This was the first move he had made toward getting his life back.

Toby gulped down his coffee before heading out to the therapy session. Spencer got ready and went over to Aria's.

Spencer had tried to keep her true feelings about Toby buried down deep where they couldn't get free but she needed to talk to somebody.

Spencer was incredibly grateful when Ezra made himself scarce so she could talk to just Aria.

"I don't know what to do Aria" Spencer finally admitted. "If I'm being honest, I want him back. I never should have let him go three years ago. We're meant to be. Or at least we were. Now everything's all screwed up."

"Why don't you tell him how you feel?" Aria suggested.

"Oh yeah there's a great idea 'hey Toby, I know you just lost your wife and all but I still love you let's get back together' that's gonna go over real well." Spencer snapped.

"I'm sorry, I was just trying to help." Aria complained.

"I know I'm just frustrated......so damn frustrated" she whimpered.

"Ok, when you say frustrated...."

"Yes, I'm sexually frustrated" Spencer huffed. "He sleeps shirtless, he's always pulling me so close, plus I keep remembering the really hot fucking sex we've had in that bed. The combination makes me crazy horny."