Family I Never Had ==KHR Fanfic==

His Worry

Tsuna's POV

I sighed, 'Thank goodness, they finally left' my mind trailed. Because despite how I can no longer fall for sleep, I really need some peace. 

I can feel the poison is trying to get me... again. though I know that they would fail, the pain remains, tearing me apart.

I feel hot and cold alternately. The consequences of getting late for my medicine. However, I still consider myself lucky since it was under 5 minutes, or else I might have to suffer longer. Since, crossing that time limit means dealing with unbearable pain worth of the whole day... while ten minutes for two days, and so on.

It was also another string of luck that I have them to get me into a safer place than lying somewhere random, like that one time.

I can still remember that day like yesterday... 

I was in the forest and just about to get back from a spying mission. However, this stupid illness just decided to strike me, catching me off guard and cause me to get late by fifteen minutes, which thanks to that I have to suffer for three days whole, lying helplessly on a river bank

But even then, I could still consider myself lucky that someone came to help me. 

which, that story is for another day to tell.

Moving on, I tried to close my eyes. But like what I've said, I can't get to sleep. And this sure is frustrating. 

Nonetheless, what option do I have? Surviving alone is a gift from Kami-sama... I couldn't have asked more.

-And just then my mind tracked me back to that betrayal sight that Reborn and the twins had. 

it makes me slightly at guilt. But not enough to makes me fall for it.

I just... can't.

I CAN'T trust anyone. so far in my life, 'trust' is nothing but a bunch of crap.  

Although, nice people do exist, and I won't deny that. Take the ninth as an example. 

Nevertheless, that doesn't flatter me on my perception. As I can no longer give my trust to anyone else than me, myself, and I. 

Besides, that would be better for everyone too. if they don't go too attached to me then they won't feel the loss when I suddenly leave. so, it's a win-win situation, right? 

No harm was done... and no one gets hurt.

'How stupid...'

I giggled weakly, 'why act grim? it's not like I felt this for the first time. To be engulfed by this one particular feeling of loneliness.' I thought to myself while closing my eyes again hoping the darkness would cooperate with me for this one. Thankfully after some moments later, it did.

I can slowly feel my body givin' up to exhaustion as the pain is slowly dulling away. 

...Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, I fall into the depth of consciousness...

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Third Person's POV

as if seeing broken tapes he saw his past repeating all over again and again despite how he begged for them to stop...

"Please... stop it! don't show me this! please give mercy!" He tried to scream, but who is he fooling? for all he did is shouting empty words to his own mind.