Family I Never Had ==KHR Fanfic==

Calm before Storm

Normal POV

One by one they handed their present to the twins.

Hibari even confessed his love to Tsuki who blushed in different shade of red before she shutter her answer which Hibari replied with a smirk. "My herbivore" he stated, making the whole gang except the obvious ones cooed.

the small party goes merry, but good thing no one caused ruckus, especially with the destructive people still remember Tsuna's threat, plus Reborn's threat days before.

Tsuna himself is sitting calmly near the window, observing them having fun. 'I wish I could feel the same...' he thought before his gaze then drifted to the sky.

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Tsuna POV

"It's sunny..." he muttered. It's Eva's favourites weather. speaking of her... Paula, Edward, Chris, Ciro, Adriana... each of them loved different weather that match their primary flame. Paula had cloud flame, Ciro had Lightning flame, Adriana had storm, Chris had rain, and the twins Eva and Edward had sun.

They were my friends along with Mukuro. the eight of us used to be experimented together. I was there the longest so I know each of them very well... They are family...

but then... the boss had a crazy idea to test each of us for the liquids that they've injected us...

we we're tested in different rooms, but I can still hear my brothers and sisters painful screams. me too started to screaming when they started my test.

All I know before I blacked out is a faint exclaim of 'this boy is a success'... then I feel nothing at all...

when I re opened my eyes some moments later, all that I see is dead bodies everywhere...

Blood painted the wall and the smell of death is suffocating the air.

I nearly faint when I realize that my hand is holding a head... who has no body attached with it...

a muffle of cries behind my back has successfully snapped me awake. It was Mukuro...

I clearly remember how scared he was back then. he then told me that I was the one who killed them. Of course I was shocked at first, guilt followed later although deep inside I feel glad when he assured me that it's alright.

We both then searched for the others, just to find them all dead. We cried... we want to hug them... but it's impossible.

Those jail rails are special made, and nothing we can do to break it. I was able to broke mine and Mukuro's. but that was thanks to my strong night flames which I still can't control properly in aware state.

so with heavy heart, we left that place to save the others and leave...

I know about Vindice and what they do. I also know that I've broke the omerta for killing those lunatics and that they'll captured me. and so I continue on killing them while telling Mukuro to stay away and leave the dirty works to me.

right after we escape the lab exploded. it was a big blast, it sent us the escapers few feet away from the wind.

I shouted my friends name as I cried hard... 

not so long then Jager came with the other Vindice and I got captured...

I shooked my head, 'snap out of it, Tsuna! past is past... you can't change it no matter what you do...' I then inhale deeply before I slowly exhiled.

"Tsuna-sensei?" a voice called. I hurriedly snapped my head.

"yes? what is it, Tsuki?" I asked

"are you okay?" she asked hesitantly.

"why wouldn't I?" I replied. I just realize that everyone is staring us. The silentness makes me feel awkward. "what is it everyone?" I decided to ask.

"well... ano... Tsuna-sensei... Eum... you're crying" Taiyo said.

I blinked. 'what?' I questioned as I touched my cheek... it's wet...

"I... cried?" I whispered to myself as I try to wipe them away. but they just don't stop.

and I think I know why...

today is their death anniversary... the only day where my facade cracked...

I feel frustated enough with my effort to weep them off, and so I stood up wanting to walk away. 

"Sorry.. but I think I'm going to leave for today. Thanks for the party..." I said flatly as I walked away.

But then I feel someone grab my wrist and stopped me. I turned around to see Mukuro who eyed me with his heteromatic eyes.

"let me go, Mukuro..." I whispered. these stuborn tears still flowing from both of my eyes. 

but instead he replied with, "no need to hide Tsuna... I'm tired of it and I know you too. can't we just moved on from the past and let them in?" he eyed me with plea.

I eyed him back, "I can't... and I won't replace our family with anything in this world... not even with them..." I declared, but still in whispers.

"Then why you insist for me to accept them?" Mukuro asked accusingly.

"because you can still be saved, Mukuro. Me, on the other hand... I'm worthless... we're different-"

"no you're not..." Vongola ninth cutted. "you might feel that it's pointless. that you're far too broken to be fixed. but it doesn't have to be that way, Cielo... you don't have to be all alone..." he smiled.

"Nono is right Cielo..." Iemitsu said. "it doesn't have to be that way. you have us... you don't have to act all mighty. if you want to cry, we'll lend you our shoulder. if you need a hug, we'll give it to you. we're eager to be your new family"

I glanced at everyone, they're staring at me with that same look of Sympathy...

I don't know why, but for the first time after years I laughed...

"C-Cielo-san?" Chrome called, but I'm still laughing. They might think that I've finally lost it. maybe I am. I'm not sure myself. I just feel that I need to...

"I'm sorry...I don't meant to laugh. I really don't..." I said after a while. "but as much I want to, I don't want to hurt you guys, nor I want to hurt myself anymore..." 

as if snapped from his daze, Taiyo shooked his head before he ask, "w-what? what do you mean by that Tsuna-sensei?" 

"well, you see, Taiyo? I grow up in hatred. no one like my presence. Never I was awknowleged as a person-no, a human... everyone that I trust on, they was either turning their back on me or end up dead. I, who know nothing about love generally has lost my ability to trust anyone. I've also killed too many to be trusted too. 

now, what is family when you can't trust each other, right? Thus why I know that this bond between us can't go further than this. we can never be a family." I smiled warily. 

They all stunned. and I find that it's my chace to leave. "I'm so sorry... and again, Thank you for the party"

with that I leave them with their own thoughts...