He's the one

Chapter 18~ FML

Ugh FML!

So today is Tuesday and like I told you I was suppose to find out if I made the team. I told you the truth about how I fell, but I mean some of those girls that were trying out they did worse. And I kinda knew that was a possibility of happening cause me and Noelia got picked last. But I hope she gets in, if not. FUCK THIS SHIT!

We were picked last over 5th and 4th graders! We're not even bad! A lot of the girls that tried out were Girly-girls!

Just FUCK THIS SHIT.....

Ugh and so how I found out was cause I asked Mr.Kwong personally and he was like "Well I haven't chosen yet.. But if you really want to know, the chances are not." Some stuff like that. I was like so fucking mad, disappointed, & I just felt invisible. And he was like "Unless there's more girls, do you know anymore girls?" I was like "No." But I think my voice was cracky, I really wanted to join. But Fuck that ever happenin! And he was like "Well you wanted to hear the truth right?" "Yeah..." Was all that came out. I didn't really talk to him or our other teacher Mrs.Souto.

And I was like alone cause we were in tech challenge & I was writing in the journal. By myself. I felt like no one saw me, like I was nothing. Invisible. I wanted to cut so MUCH but it went away later. (I don't cut with a knife or blade. I cut with a pencil. I know some people would consider that not even cutting but it's just like scratches. Sorry if you feel awkward about this. I've been trying SOO hard not cutting cause my birthday is coming up. And I've been trying to do it for my friends I can think only of four who know I do this and they don't want me to do it. You know who you are, three of you might be reading this. My other friend doesn't have a wattpad. Sorry this is long)

Well yeah that was the only sucky thing about today.

I passed out my invitations to my friends at school :)

I was a lil happy cause my ex-bestfriend asked me what I wanted for my birthday cause I invited her to my party. We separated during the years, we used to protect each other since kinder up until like 4 and a lil in the beginning of 5th grade but it stopped there. We kinda talk but less than we used to.

I talked to Francisco 😊 he handed me a paper and asked me about something. He borrowed my book before, I think he still has it 😁. We kinda walked together in PE but I was with Juan, Johnson & Ruben I think, oh and Eliany. We talked a lil.

Sorry this is short

That's all that happened today

Thx for the reads and votes!

Bye 😚