Before She Falls

Chapter 49

Harry and I lay in his bed while the dull buzz of the television is the only real noise in the room. It's 12:44am and neither Harry nor I are really that tired. Even though Harry should probably be asleep seeing as though he's pretty sick and he has to prepare for the concert all day tomorrow. Harry and I are facing each other, my head resting underneath his chin while my face and hands are snuggled up next to his chest. His arm is underneath my head, supporting it, while his other is draped around my waist. It's dark in the room besides the brightness of the television and it's a little cold as well. Harry pulls the white blankets over both of our bodies and tangles his legs between mine.

"Who do you say I love you to, besides me?" Harry asks as he tucks the sheets underneath my side with his free hand.

"Um..my mom, Maddie, Drew, well sometimes, Vanessa, Liam, the rest of my family" I list out everyone I can think of right now. "Why?"

"I'm just wondering" he replies and sneaks his arm back around me under the blanket.

"Who do you say it to?"

"You, my mum, Gemma, my dad, Robin, the boys, Paul, Lou, a lot of people I guess" Harry answers and I get a little disappointed in his response, I can't help it. But then I realize how silly that is, I can't keep Harry to myself. He's a loving kid; who gives love and receives it. And I tend to be the same way.

"You love a lot of people, that's all" I tell Harry as he stirs a little bit, adjusting himself under the covers.

"Do you think we said it too soon?" Harry rests his cheek on the side of my head.

"What, 'I love you'?" I lift my head up so I could see some of his face, I just want to look into his eyes.

"Yeah" he breathes and catches my glance.

"Not really. I don't think there's a specific time we need to say it. I knew I loved you that day and I let you know" I press my fingertips into Harry's naked chest. "It just so happened to be the exact same time you did."

"Such a coincidence" Harry laughs and nudges my arm.

"I just needed a little push" I giggle and try to convince Harry.

"Yeah yeah" he says and chuckles along with me.

"Are you excited for tomorrow?" I change the subject to focus on Harry.

"Dunno really" he says lowly in his accent. "I'm a little more nervous than excited."

"You'll be great" I assure him, wrapping both my hands around the back of his neck and interlock my fingers together.

"You have to say that, you're my girlfriend. It's like a rule" Harry purses his lips after his last syllable and then looks down at me next to him.

"I'm being serious. When's the last time One Direction had a bad performance?" I run my fingers through Harry's fluffy hair, scratching his scalp with my nails because he told me a while ago that is one of his favorite things that I do for him.

"Hm" Harry's eyes avert upwards as he tries to recall the exact time.

"Exactly, you can't remember" I prove my point and continue assuring him that all will be well tomorrow night. "You have four of your best friends on stage with you. You have done this hundreds of times before. You'll be great."

I steal a quick kiss and then spin myself around. I fit the back of my body into the front of Harry's until our bodies form together. I pull the covers back up to my shoulders and Harry's one arm remains underneath my head and I know he'll really hate me in the morning when the heaviness of it makes his entire arm feel like jello. But tonight I let my head relax against his bicep, while his other arm is hung around me loosely.