Secret sorrows of the heart (Black Butler/Kuroshitsuji fan fic)

Chapter 1: Her dream of only him

Just a heads up, I am not making this chapter private just because I don't feel like it's very naughty. So here is chapter one my lovelies I do hope you like it;) even if its on the short side...

   I can't remember how long it had been since I had seen any assortment of light. All I had been in was darkness, unnerving, relentless darkness.

I had begun to feel like I was going to be stuck there, and that was alright with me.

I had no worries here, no memories. That is until he came back for me.

His long, pale skillful fingers reached out for me. I could never clearly see his face, but I knew I had loved him.

He was someone special to me, the one I entrusted everything with. 

His fingertips achingly brushed across the pad of my forearm, electric volts traveled from the spot he had touched- into new found territory.

Fire danced across every edge of my skin like a vad of kinetic energy had been soaked deep within my pores.

Maybe my mind was play tricks on me? Or maybe my body had laid dorement for so long that I was beginning to crave to be touched the way HE once had done to me.

Either way, whether dream or reality I was ready- ready for the desire to explode and spread like wildfire.

Ready to feel alive again. I arched my back into this mans touch, nearly falling over the edge from just one soft stroke of his pale finger gliding down my torso.

His mouth slowly inched toward a swollen bud, circling and nipping ever so slightly.

The pain and pleasure mix was exquisite, excruciating, and absolutely forbidden.

Forbidden? Why, was this wrong?

I didn't have long to ponder upon that thought before the man licked the arch of my neck up to my jaw, slowly inching his way toward my mouth.

I moaned as his lips met mine, pleasure of no other exploded within me- awakening a new side, that I wasn't familiar with.

The pad of his thumb circled around my most sensitive area, teasing and pinching.

I moaned as one slim, cold digit found its way within my sheath. Moving in and out, and then he added another. I gasped at the bittersweet pleasure.

I heard the man growl, and then shuffling of clothes clattering to the ground filled my ears.

I tried to look up but the mans face was shrouded in darkness, the only thing visible were his crimson colored orbs.

Within those torchered orbs I could see everything I needed to know this man was a predator. A killer, yet I accepted him.

I didn't even need to think twice about it. Why was I reacting to him like this?

The mans engorged member at my dripping entrance lured me out of my thoughts.

I started to pulse and ache for his touch, more so than I had only moments before.

"I need you to say my name Idris, I can only do this if you remember my name." The mysterious, lustful man said huskily barely keeping himself in control.

Idris...? Why did that sound so familiar?

"Remember and I'll reward you." The man added, but this time he started to kiss just below my napel.

I moaned as he nipped and sucked his way up my abdominal, and through the valley of my breasts.

Images of a man with sleek, dark raven hair came to mind. His burnt wine colored orbs glancing over at me with want, love, and complete and utter dangerous lust.

"S-sebastian?" I choked out, not entirely sure where my voice had come from.

I could feel the man smirk against my skin, his member teasingly pressing against my entrance.

"My love it's nice to finally hear my name from your delectable lips." Sebastian said nibbling my bottom lip as he positioned himself above me.

He gradually eased himself into me, earning a gasp a pleasurable pain.

I was finally getting what I had wanted, no what I craved.

He began to thrust inside me, I threw my head back as many sensations overwhelmed me.

Heat was starting to build up, along with this inevitable feeling of pressure. Sebastian's pace started to pick up, slamming into me as though deprived from food for weeks- and just now getting to taste the forbidden fruit on the tree in the garden of Eve.

How fitting it was.

The pressure continued to build until finally I broke. My inner walls pulsing against the engorged member inside of me, making him reach his peak not even seconds after me.

And then everything shattered, drowning me in the sea of darkness again but this time not without a single whisper through the wind.

"We're coming to save you, just be patient."

I weeped as I realised everything had been just my imagination, created by me and my wild desire for something living.

Something human.

Something real.

Something that was mine.