Living Like This

Four

When Cas got back home, Aaron was there.

"Hey babe," Cas said, lighting up. Aaron smiled at him.

"Hi Cas. How are you?" Aaron asked.

"I'm good. Did you have a good day?" Cas asked in return. Aaron waved Cas over and Cas sat down next to him on the couch, laying back in Aaron's arms.

"It was good. I hung out with Mike, we had a great time. Were you bored without me?" Aaron asked, stroking Cas' hair.

"No, I was fine. Do you want to watch a movie?" Cas asked. Aaron nodded.

"Sure Cas," he said.

They watched the movie cuddling on the couch, and Cas was happy. That night, after Cas had made dinner, they lay in their bed together, Cas taking comfort in Aaron next to him and drifting off to sleep.

Naomi was doing it again. She was on top of him, she was taking his shirt off, he didn't want this, he didn't want her.

"It's okay Cassie, I'm going to fix you," she crooned in his ear, making him squirm. No! he wanted to scream No I don't want to! but it wouldn't do him any good. They all knew, no one cared, no one cared about him, they all thought he was a dirty fag. Naomi's hand went to Cas' pants-

Cas woke up with a scream, tears running down his face. Aaron rolled over.

"Cas?" He asked, mumbling.

"She- she was d-doing it again," Cas choked out. Aaron sat up next to Cas and put an arm across Cas' back.

"Hey, it's okay, you aren't there anymore, she won't ever touch you again," Aaron said. Cas curled towards Aaron and Aaron pulled him back down onto the bed.

"I love you," Cas said, his face buried in Aaron's chest.

"Sleep well Cas," Aaron said.

***

Cas never quite fell back asleep, and just as the sun was starting to rise, he worked his way out of Aaron's arms, grabbed a book and his phone and curling up on the couch. He tried reading for a while, but his nightmare wouldn't go away. He didn't want to wake Aaron up, Aaron didn't like being woken up early. There was only one other thing he could think of. He picked up his phone.

Hey Dean. It's Cas.

Cas set his phone down and waited, but he didn't have to wait long.

Hey Cas. What in god's name are you doing up at this hour?

  Trouble sleeping. What about you?

My neighbors. One of them must have just gotten home from a long trip the way they're going at it.

Cas and Dean talked for hours after that. They talked about a lot, but nothing of consequence. When Aaron woke up, Cas was still sitting on the couch, reading and texting Dean. Normally when Cas had a nightmare it could take him a whole day to relax and let it go, but after just an hour of talking to Dean, he felt fine.

"Good morning honey," Cas said, standing up and walking over to the table with Aaron.

"Good morning Cas," Aaron replied.

"Did you sleep well?" Cas asked, kissing Aaron on the cheek. Aaron smiled.

"I did. Did you get back to sleep?" Aaron asked. Cas shrugged.

"I had a little trouble, but it's fine," he said. His phone dinged and he looked at it.

Look, I'm sure you think you know what a good car is, but trust me, you ain't seen nothing till you've seen Baby.

Cas smiled. He loved Aaron, but Dean was just something totally new. Cas liked it.