Jungkook's Pov
"No please don't." I whimpered loudly holding myself tight.
"You promised we'd stay together forever." I cried out heart-wrenching sobs as I felt my heart break all over again into a million pieces "no don't leave me all alone!" I screamed in tears holding onto the bed for dear life.
"Jungkook!" I heard a loud scream and I shot up from bed when I saw I was being crowded around by Taehyung, Jimin, Hoseok, Seokjin Yoongi and Namjoon all looking sleepy and worried.
"Jungkook you were crying and screaming in your sleep again." Jimin whispered flicking his half-awake gaze at me "it was actually scary this time." Hoseok muttered.
I brought my hands to my cheek fresh new tears have fallen and started again I covered my face. "I dreamed about him again." I sobbed quietly feeling Yoongi sit down hugging me sleepy.
"Jungkook-ah you gotta tell us who it is you're dreaming about this has been happening since 2015 we're at the beginning of 2017 we need to know," Yoongi whispered as I continue to cry.
"No you guys will just judge me." I cried "Jungkook we never would we just wanna help you. It's not normal to cry this much we just wanna help." Seokjin mumbled rubbing my sunk down shoulders.
"First let him calm down," Namjoon ordered and I kept shaking with little tears finally it took about twenty minutes for me to stop crying.
I was in a sad daze looking at the wall I looked when Jimin touched my arm "you good now kookie can you tell us?" Jimin asked with hope in his voice.
I nodded my head "during my trainee years and for as little, as some years I was dating someone a boy." I whispered Yoongi was still holding me.
Namjoon eyes went wide with shock "Jungkook you're gay." Taehyung stuttered "unhuh." I nodded sadly.
"We dated for a long time but he had something wrong with him he had an impulse disorder where he couldn't control the attacks." I sniffled out "deep breaths." Hoseok reminded me.
I nodded flipping my bangs from my face "he never meant to hurt me when they happen I never blamed him when they happen. I was worried for him hyungs always I never liked doing a schedule afraid he was hurt while I was away I just loved him so much." I whimpered putting my hand on my temple.
"What happened Jungkook?" Seokjin asked me Hoseok nodded deeply with a straight face.
"One day after our dope comeback he had an attacked that left me really hurt I was just so upset that I couldn't be a better person to help him through it."
"I started crying out of fear that night I saw the regret and the hurt in Cameron's eyes he had cleaned me up and we spent the night together I kept telling him it wasn't his fault because he thought I was gonna leave him." I stammered my heart hurting at the memories.
"Oh god." I cried rocking a bit and Yoongi clutched me more "what happened Jungkook?" Yoongi whispered, "the next day he left me he told me he couldn't hurt me anymore that he couldn't provide the perfect healthy relationship with me I'm sorry guys I miss him." I cried and Yoongi full blown hugged me.
"Awww Jungkook." Hoseok cooed I kept crying out loud. "Shhh its okay Jungkook we're not judging you were in love and we didn't know." Seokjin whispered rubbing my back I nodded.
"Hyungs I want him back can you help me find him." I whispered hearing Jimin sigh "Jungkook what if he doesn't wanna be found or known about maybe it was for the best." Jimin explained to me.
"No I have been happy but not like I use to I just want him back." I whispered, "help me find him please?" I ask them when Namjoon looked around at everyone rubbing his sleep hair.
"We might be able to try Jungkook-ah it might be hard there are 7.3 billion people in the world you want us to find one I, at least need to know what he looks like?" He asked me.
I nodded releasing Yoongi Hyung who pulled my hair away asking if I was okay I nodded drying my tears up fast.
