Dear diary,
I'm feeling so sick, my anxiety is growing so much.
Today was a shitty day, I didn't sleep at all, I stayed awake all night crying because Sarah, one of my friends, is at the hospital and I can't even come back to my town to visit her.
When I left my bunk I felt like a mess, my head was hurting so much, probably for how I spent the night.
The moment when I was going to the bus kitchen to have breakfast they all had their eyes on me and gave me a worried look, except Josh who gave me a kind of... annoyed look.
Fortunally, no one asked what was going on, I didn't really want to talk about it.
I had a conversation with Dan later, we were talking about the new album they are working on and he said that they would like to collab with me for a few songs and I accepted. Am I really going to sing with Fransassy? Oh. My. God.
He walked past us a few times and I think he didn't like what he saw considering that he gave Dan an angry look, I let a giggle escape my lips thinking of how the sixers would freak out seeing that scene, they would have screamed 'FLINTCESCHI'.
In the afternoon I heard a conversation between the guys about me, Josh said that he didn't want the others to talk to me because I caused him problems in the past, he seemed really hurt and his voice was cracking, I felt that he was about to cry. The fact is that I really don't remember anything about him... have we met in the past? Anyway I didn't have the guts to enter in the living room and ask for explanations, I was so confused.
I am still so confused.
Anyway, as I told you yesterday, we have to play in Pomona, I'm gonna sing Always Attract with the band tonight, I'm anxious.
Wish me good luck, bye.
Joleene
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