Jim's Father - Book Two {Completed}

Thinking About Death

Few days after that whole thing with my dad, I saw Claire leaving Trollmarket and I ran to her "Hey Claire" I said "Oh hi Jim" Claire said "I just remember something" I said "What did you remember" Claire said "Remember, when I was liking my dad" I said "Yep" Claire said "When I was about to go for dinner, you said we were going on a date" I said as Claire's face goes red "I-I forgot a-about that" Claire said "Well, we ever went on that date" I said as she starts blushing "So Claire Nunez, would you like to go on a date with me" I asked "Yes" Claire said "Well, I can walk you home" I said "Ok" Claire said.

While walking, Claire was holding my hand and when we got to her house "Bye Jim" Claire said as she kissed me on the cheek "Bye Claire" I said.

I walked home and went into my room, I was working on homework and then I lied down on my bed, I started thinking about what my dad said and that went into thinking about death, my death.

I was thinking about it all night, about suicide and then I was thinking about how I'll do it, when I do it and where I do it. I don't know why I was thinking about it but I kept thinking about, but I could never do it because I would be leaving my friends and my family but I kept thinking about and then I went downstairs, their was a note from my mom.

It said that she was going to be home in two days, she had to go on a trip with three other doctors to go help people in other countries, I put down the note and went to the kitchen and got me and Toby's lunch as I look over and see a knife. I walked over to it and picked it up and then the suicide thinking came back and I saw myself stabbing myself in the leg or even head as I snap out of it as I hear a knock on the door. I put the knife down and went to the door, it was Toby and Claire, I put on a happy face so I worried make them worried about me as I open the door "Hi guys" I said "Claire just told me that you asked her out last night" Toby said "Yep" I said getting my helmet and bike.

We biked to school as I look at the cars, I start thinking about the suicide thing again and saw myself jumping in front of the car or standing in the middle of the road but I stop thinking about it and kept going.

When we got to school, I looked at the roof, I saw myself jumping off of it. After school, we went to Trollmarket and while walking to the library, I walked towards the edge and look over and saw myself falling off the edge.

As we were training, I kept thinking about suicide and I started thinking of ways I can kill myself, I looked at the axes, the plat forms, me falling and rolling off the edge. While I was thinking about this, I stopped and started thinking more about it and when I got home, I started writing plans for my suicide and ways to kill myself in my notebook until I heard a knock at the door.

I went downstairs and open the door, it was Toby and Claire "Hey Guys" I said "Hey" Claire said "Jimbo, I got to use your bathroom" Toby said "Sure" I said as me and Claire went into the living room.

Toby was done using the bathroom and walked passed my room and saw my notebook, I left it open and he went into my room and looked at it and as he dropped the notebook. Me and Claire go upstairs to check on Toby and I saw him in my room and Claire saw the notebook "Jim you want t-to commit suicide!" Toby said "Why Jim?" Claire said "That's not my notebook" I said "I found it, coming home" I said.

I lied about it but they bought it and after they left, I continue writing my suicide notes until I fell asleep and my mom came into my room and saw me sleeping on my notebook and saw my notes but she didn't cry or do anything, she left the room quietly and I could hear her talking to someone on the phone and I guessed it was Strickler and I kept thinking about it.