Her Fragile Heart

How rude!

Selena's P.O.V

I finally arrive at the place where all hell broke loose...my home.  I go and knock on the door, the devils wife opens the door, and by that I mean my mother.  she looks at me and gasps, staring up and down my body in disgust.  its my fucking body and shes looking at me like im some worthless slut.  "what do you want selena?" my mother asked rudely.  "May I come in? I'd like to talk." I say, she nods and lets me in.  we go and sit down on the couch.  "ok, what is so urgent that you had to come to talk to me for? did he use you and toss u aside?" she asks, how dare that mother- "he did didnt he? well you may come live with me if you-" I interupt her.  "no, I'm still with Harry, and dont even try, you dont know ANYTHING about our relationship." I state emphasising the word 'anything'.  "ok, Selena please, stop being so rude." my mom tell me.  how dare she tell me not to be rude.  "ME?! IM BEING RUDE? CLEARLY YOUR DEAF! BECAUSE IF I SO RECALL YOU WERE THE ONE BEING RUDE TO ME!" I yell.  "ugh, how dare you, how DARE YOU SAY THAT TO ME!" she yells.  "ok, clearly we are getting no were, so we should both stop being rude." I say and she agrees.  "ok, mom-" she clears her throat.  "mother, why is it that you dislike me so much?" I ask.  "well, selena, I would like the best for you and you are wasting your life with a worth-, I mean a boy, who in no doubt will dismay and violate you." she says.  "so you dont like my decision to be with Harry? but mother its my life and what knowledge do you have that makes you so posotive that he will  dismay me and violate me?" I ask.  "yes, but when I look at Harry I see...your father, and your father would violate me, everyday, and he treated me like rubbish." she says.  "selena, he may seem like a 'badboy' figure now, and you may be attracted to that, but later on, he will do what your father did to me." she adds.  "mother, he looks like that but he is sweet and caring, what knowlegde do you have of him if he is given no chance?" I ask.  "I am extremely more experienced than you do, and that is your future with him.  he has already have you dressing like...this, and sooner he will..." I know what she means but I dont agree, she is saying I'll fuck him, but thats not going to happen until I fully know and trust him, dont get me wrong I trust him with my life, but it needs to wait a while.  I need to tell her the truth, now.  "I'm sorry, but you have to accept me Mom, this is the real me, you never knew because you controlled how I dressed and what I do, I dont talk all proper and shit like that, this is me, and if you can't accept me then how can you love me?" I ask and get up to leave.  a tear escapes and I quickly wipe it away and start driving.  when I get back home I tell the boys, and my girls what happened.  I just stayed in my room the rest of the night. 

*next day*

I wake up and get up. I have school today.  ugh! why does life hate me? I wake everyone up and get ready.

*at school*

people hate me, I was only on the label for awhile, so no one knew me, yet.  Harry is liked, obviously! but people thought I wasnt good enough for him.  school was okay, the usuall slut or whore comment once in a while but other than that, it was fine.

*after school*

now this is fucking fabulous! Harry and I got in this bigass fight because he beat the shit out of this guy at school because he called me a slut.  I was about to tell him off, but before I could, Harry being the phsyco he is tackled the guy to the ground and was beating him to a pulp.  I told him I could handle it but he got all bitchy on me.  I swear he got me so fucking mad I was about to bitch slap him.  he still lives with me and shit but I ignore him.  about an hour after all hell went down, he finally talked to me.  "selena, I was just standing up for you." he says.  "are you fucking kidding me?! I told you I could fucking handle it, why did you fucking beat the shit out of him?" I yell.  "because I'm tired of this fan and media shit, I didnt like how people judged my every choice and hurt people I'm with! maybe they're right! maybe you are a slut! go to hell bitch!" he yells.  "meet you there asshole! im the fucking slut?! there is manwhore written all over you!" I yell, the boys are just standing there looking at me with their jaws on the floor.  "what?! havent you ever heard me swear before?!" I yell.  yea that asshole, the guy, called me a slut and I was going to flip him off, but NOOO, Harry just HAD to beat him! I'm mad because he's treating me like a baby, I can handle myself, I don't need a fucking bodyguard, guarding me from life.  "I gave up my friendship with my mother because of you! I can't believe it! my mom was right! atleast you didnt get into my pants first, thats one thing I wouldnt do until I fully trustEd You, you hear that? Ed as in PAST TENSE!" then his words just hit me like a fucking tital wave.  he called me a slut, bitch and told me to go to hell! I am starting to tear up so instead I run to my room and lock the door, sliding down it while sobbing.  am I really a slut? should I really just go to hell? no! they want a slut? I'll give them a slut.

Authors Note:  hey ppl! hope you enjoy this chapter! I started writing my book on my computer, and once I found out about wattpad I started of the same but then just wrote what came to my mind.  I just looked over my old story and it was this fight, between selena and the boys, excluding Harry, and so selena was scared of a movie and she asked Harry to stay with her so he did. the next day the boys were bugging them and selena got really pissed and starting yelling.anyway I'll update ASAP.  sorry for the delay. 

                             -Alli_234