Ethan & Me ❤️ {CrankGameplays}

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Okay. I'm gonna get serious real quick, and if you don't like triggering things. Please skip.

You might not see me, but I'm not the prettiest.

I wear glasses, I have brown hair and eyes, I'm 5 foot 3 1/2 inches, and I'll be honest. I'm fat.

Come on, let's be real everyone. We all look into our mirrors and see at least one imperfection that we'd like to change.

I'm a very active person, but somehow. I never lose anything. Ever.

I weigh 162 pounds and I'm not that old.

I'll be honest again. Suicide has been an option as well as cutting these past few months.

Yes, I may seem like a very cheery person.  But I think I just use that to cover up the darkness that's slowly consuming me...Inside and out...

My head is not in the exact right place at the moment. And I'm feeling like I'm just done. And I really don't want to screw something up by doing something stupid.

So if people can just come and support, it'd mean the world.

Even just a "It'll be okay!", would help.

Just something so that I know that I can't go down these roads.

Roads of self harm. I'm starving myself at the moment, and I've thought about cutting. Not my highest moments.

Roads of suicide. I've thought about it, but if I'm honest, I dont know if I could ever go through with that.

I just need someone to tell me that it's okay.

Okay to be a little bit bigger than others.

Okay to not look like the prettiest girl ever.

Okay to eat.

Okay to not cut.

Okay... To even live.

I love you guys. I really do. Stay beautiful, okay?

Yours truly,

~Emma