Ethan & Me ❤️ {CrankGameplays}

I'm done guys. 😭

I think I might discontinue this book for awhile....I love you guys but...it's just too much.

I'm so stressed out right now...it's like to the point I literally just want to die.

It's because of stupid History.

It wasn't the same girl as yesterday, but instead it was a guy named Anthony. Everyone calls him Rocky.

He wouldn't leave me alone, so I made him do something to leave me ALONE!

Mistake.

He did what I said, but it was a total mess and disaster.

So I said to just wait, and I redid it.

Guess what?

He's a jerk and told on me because I wasn't letting him do anything.

So I was in trouble, for the stupid ass reason he came up with.

By then, everything was done, so I was literally flipping him off in my mind. Like, forget you!

So we have this thing, if the whole group agrees, you can kick someone out. Thankfully my group agreed and we kicked that dumb ass out.

But before we did that, I was rushing off to the bathroom crying...because I...I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE!

My friends say that I can do it...but they don't understand. They don't understand how crappy, worthless, and forgotten I feel.

I'm really at the point that cutting would feel better than the feelings that I'm feeling...

But I don't want to....

But I do...😔

My mind is swirling, my heart is hurting, and all I want is to be gone because of this cruel cruel world...

You guys...I feel like shit. I am shit. And I don't deserve to be here.

Obviously the world is trying to kill me slowly, so why don't I just speed up the process? Right?

So don't be surprised if one of these days a 13 year old, named Emma Monica Cortez has taken her life...

Or in the hospital because her cuts were so deep...

This might be goodbye, and maybe for the last time.

I love you guys, so much.

Bye.

Sincerely,

Emma Monica Cortez