Dependency // l.tomlinson *Completed*

27. Radley

27. Radley

It was day five away from everyone. Away from my Louis. It's been hard not being able to cuddle with him. I missed his touch, his scent, his smile. I missed the way he said 'I love you'. I missed his presence in general. I didn't like being so far away from him for such a long period of time but I had to stick to my word. I was going to stay away from my backstabbing family.

I wanted to believe that they lied to me just to protect me but I didn't feel protected. I felt so betrayed and hurt. I love my family, no matter what they put me through, but I couldn't go back anymore. Not after that night.

Niall and Harry have been coming everyday to keep me company but it wasn't the same. They weren't Louis. I couldn't kiss them.

I've become quite the insomniac over the past few days. I can't get any sleep because my brain is set to high speed. I close my eyes and I see either my dad staring at me in the kitchen or I'm imaging the look Caleb is going to give me when I'm found.

I shuddered at the thought of him and brought my knees closer to my chest. I wrapped the blanket tighter around myself and tried not to think of anything.

It was half passed one when there was a knock on the door.

I got up and checked through the peephole before opening the door. As a precaution.

Harry and Niall shuffled in and sat on the couch.

"Hello." I said, quietly.

They nodded buy remained quiet.

"How... How is he?" I asked. I knew Louis had found out about me on Valentine's Day because he was supposed to pick me up for dinner. I hadn't the courage to ask about him until now.

Niall shook his head and covered his face with his hands. He breathed in and out to conceal that he was crying.

Harry rubbed his back and looked at me, eyes glossed over.

"He's not doing good. Really bad, actually. I think he's is worse than the whole thing with Coco." He whispered.

I bit my lip to hold back a sob. Louis almost gave his life after Coco. What I did to him was not the best idea.

"I'm sorry." I whispered back.

"Why are you sorry?" Niall removed his hands and looked up at me. Seeing Niall cry was a heartbreaking sight. I just wanted to cuddle him and make him feel better. "Why are you sorry, Radley?"

"I... I'm making your best friend hurt. I can't believe I'm doing that to you. I can't believe I'm doing that to him. I just want everything to go back to normal," I paused, "maybe if Louis and I had never met, he wouldn't be so broken. I could've stayed with Caleb to save him the pain. I'm horrible for being so selfish. Oh, my god. I'm ruining his life."

Niall stood up and sat next to me on the bed. He put his arms around me and gave me a bone crushing hug. "You weren't selfish, Rad. Just... Just shut up, okay? You don't need to be sorry about anything. Harry and I are here to help you while Zayn and Liam are taking care of Louis. And you've done the opposite of ruining his life. You made it so much better."

"I want to talk to Louis. I want to tell him that I'm sorry." I murmured.

"I think it would help him." Harry said. He got up and reached for Niall's hand. "Babe, let's give her some alone time. We'll be right outside, okay?"

I nodded and grabbed my phone. I hesitated to call him but I knew it had to be done.

With a boost of confidence, I pressed on Louis' name when it came up in my contacts list.