Somebody To You || Park Jimin

Episode 15

"Like you mean it." Chorong muttered and Jimin sighed, he can never blame her if she doesn't believe what he says. After all, everyone's right. He's a jerk.

A cold and ruthless jerk.

"I do, I'm sorry." Jimin said as he turned his head and look at her at the same time Chorong looked up. He felt his heart breaking when he saw his tears stained face and bloodshot eyes, he's the reason for that. He sighed.

"You don't have to." Chorong said dismissing what he said. It felt nice to hear him apologizing to her, but she knew how Jimin hated apologizing and she doesn't want pity to be the reason why he's doing that now. She'll look even more lowly at herself.

"I mean it." Jimin stated firmly. "I was just scared." He added.

"Scared of what?" Chorong asked, and immediately regretted doing so.

It was her curiosity that spoke.

"You see, I never get close to anyone back at work right?" He said before swallowing the invisible lump that was trying to block his throat, it was his fear, the fear of letting his walls down and getting hurt again. Chorong saw it, and she knew instantly.

"It's okay you don't have to--"

"I have to." Jimin said cutting her off. "I have to get rid of this." He added.

"But you're uncomfortable, I can see it. You don't have to force yourself, I forgive you already."

Just like I always do. Chorong thought.

"I..."

"Then I'll talk about myself first if it makes you a bit comfortable." Chorong said cutting him off and Jimin did nothing but to nod his head. "Okay." He answered and Chorong sighed.

"You know that everyone said that I dated almost every guy at the office right?" Chorong asked and Jimin slowly nodded his head. "I have a reason for that, a reason you might never understand." Chorong said as she kept her eyes straight. No, she doesn't want to break down in front of him.

Not now, not ever.

"My family... they're all against the whole singing thing. They never supported me since high school, and I had to move to Seoul to study. I was fortunate to get a scholarship, I was fortunate to have met Sunny and her family and I was fortunate to get a great job at Chanyeol oppa's company as a singer but it was never enough. I needed my family, I was never a fan of loneliness." Chorong explained. She felt her chest tightening.

"That's why you dated those guys, because you felt lonely?" Jimin asked and Chorong bit her lower lip as she nodded her head, as much as she wanted to deny it, it as the truth. "I can't blame you." He continued and Chorong immediately turned her head to look at him. Confusion written all over her face.

Jimin raised his brows. "What?" He asked.

"You said before.." Chorong trailed and Jimin remembered everything he had told her. He felt guilty yet again.

"I'm sorry, it was a bad judgment." He said with a frown and Chorong had to chuckle with that. "But it was also a bad move, I could have chosen another way to get rid of that loneliness right?" Chorong said with a frown and he had to smile a little.

"People have different ways to deal with situations, it's just that yours is that." Jimin stated and Chorong chuckled. "So, is that supposed to make me feel better?" Chorong asked and Jimin shrugged. "Up to you." He said and Chorong nodded her head.

"Okay, I feel flattered." Chorong said before laughing and Jimin chuckled. "Are you... in good terms with your parents now?" Jimin asked out of nowhere and the smile on Chorong's face disappeared as she shook her head. He saw a glint of disappointment and sadness in the latter's eyes and yet again, he felt his heart breaking.

"I practically ran away from home. It'll take a miracle for them to do so." Chorong said with a bitter smile and Jimin nodded his head deciding not to say anything anymore. He doesn't want to make her feel worse anymore, they may have not shared the same pain but it's pain after all.

Both of them are hurting, in different ways though.

"What about you?" Chorong asked. "What's your story?" She continued.

Jimin gulped. The fear, he felt the fear again.

I have to get rid of this fear, he thought.

"I was adopted." Jimin started and Chorong couldn't believe her ears.

She thought that he was just another rich brat that had nothing to do with the company's employees that's why he treats them rudely.

"My parents, the biological ones sent me to the orphanage because of some... problems. I grew up there till I was two but I grew up depressed." He continued. A two year old? Depressed. Chorong frowned.

It must have gone badly for him to be like that. Chorong thought.

"I was never able to talk properly until this married couple adopted me. They were the nicest people I know, and they helped me be able to talk." Jimin said as he swallowed the non-existent lump blocking his throat, he also tried to fight the urge to cry.

"They took care of me until I was five, everything was great. Until my real parents came back and took me away from them, I was shocked and I fell into depression again and I wasn't able to talk. I lost my voice." Jimin continued. "Then, in my late teenage years, I finally had the strength to talk again but, the difference is that if I talk too much, like now, there's this fear that kept on haunting me." Jimin said as he looked down and Chorong saw his glistening eyes. Not knowing what to do, Chorong hesitantly lifted her hand up and rubbed his back gently. Jimin seemed to have calmed down.

"H-Hey, it's alright." Chorong said, she never saw him that vulnerable before.

It pained her and now, she understood why he always shut people out.

Now, she understood why he kept pushing her away.

"I-I'm sorry if I keep mistreating you, I was just..."

"Scared, I know. We both are." Chorong said while looking at him. Her eyes filled with worry.

"I'm sorry." Jimin said as he finally break down.

"Hey, shh. It's alright." Chorong said as she engulfed him into a hug in hopes to sooth him. Jimin on the other hand didn't know what to do, he wanted to leave that place right now for letting Chorong show how vulnerable he is but there's something that makes him want to stay.

He felt safe in her arms, he felt warmth.

He felt... complete.

"I'm sorry." He said again and Chorong lightly pushed him away and wiped his tears away even when she's tearing up too.

"It's alright, we both went through something. I'll chalk it up on that." Chorong said with a smile on her face and Jimin felt guilty. How can she be nice to him after all the hurtful words he had told her?

"But..."

"Friends? No more shutting each other out? No more argument?" Chorong asked as she lifted her pinky finger up and Jimin stared at it. He couldn't believe that Chorong would choose to stay with someone like him.

"Why do you do this--?"

"Friends?" Chorong asked again ignoring him and Jimin knew he cannot win the fight and as much as he finds those pinky promises childish, Jimin found himself intertwining his finger to Chorong making a promise.

"Friends."

A/N: An update!!!