Short Stories And Such

i forgive you.

i've lost people in my life,
to guilt and to heartbreak,
to distance and to time,
to pain and to silence
but i think the worst kind of loss
is when you go from best friends
to strangers.
when you have to pretend
that you don't know every
detail about her,
that you don't know
how soft her hands are after a shower
or what she is most afraid of
or that she likes peach scented candles
or how she spends hours curling her hair so it sits just right.
but i know,
i know that she has anxiety disorder
and she will stay up all night just to finish a tv series
i know that she likes to watch the stars in the early hours of the morning when everyone is asleep
and she can pull off glitter and cowboy boots simultaneously
i know that she would do anything to protect her little brothers
and she has saved my life more times than i can count on both hands.
and i know she will never read this
but if somehow she can hear me,
i want her to know

i forgive you.