Poetry of my Thoughts

A Simple Hello...

I always ask myself ...

Why am I like this?

It hurts to be me...

To have the people I love deal with a shit like me.

What am I supposed to do?

I hate the fact that my friends can say I am a jerk and just act like it's nothing...

But I can't help but agree with them.

I feel like I'm just going to lose it.

Like I'm just going to be pushing everyone away so they don't have to deal with me.

I want to cry but I don't want anyone to worry about me because I know they have their own problems.

It's just what I do.

What am I supposed to do?

Can anyone give me an answer?

Is there anyone who can save me from me?

People will say it will get better, but until that happens...can someone distract me from myself so I won't concentrate on my thoughts.

Can someone save me from myself?

So at least I won't push you guys away?

Because I still want to be with you, but I don't want you to get hurt.

Why is it that I can't have a solution to the problem I can't figure out?

Why is it so difficult?

You guys are the only thing that can keep me distracted from what I actually feel.

So...

All I ask is that you...can you just stay by me while I figure myself out.

Even if you have to go after...

But at least give me a simple hello so I know that you still remember me.

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I posted this on Facebook because I was feeling down. Mostly because my life started to turn around.